When you gotta go, you gotta go

WARNING: this post may probably be not for the faint-hearted... haha!

hilarious moment during today's microbio period. since the start of this week, our prof (Dra. C.) refuses to give us our early dismissals... and she really takes up the whole time. But, of course, as students, we try to "bargain" with her.... so, for today, we were asking her to dismiss us already (considering it's a weekend and we're all itching to go home). we say 4; she bargains 415 (our real time is till 430). Miss, 405! the reply: "we'll see..."


The room we were in was extremely cold (well, okay, according to Ge-An). I didn't feel the coldness until the later part of the lectures... and because of the coldness, we felt the urge to go. But we didn't want to yet cos we were expecting her to dismiss us anytime soon. it was 4, and we were expecting to be dismissed at 415 or earlier. BUT. BUT a lot of "but"s came. after discussing our research works, she moved on to having a "short" review for the upcoming exams on monday. whew!!! i kept trying to breathe deeply to keep me warm. and just when we thought Dra. C. was about to end her lecs (errr.... reviews)... she goes on and continues talking! just when she finally closes the current ppt presentation, she remembers something else and starts browsing through her files to open up another one!!! WHEW!!!! uggggh. WE REALLY NEED TO GOOOOOOO.... all the time, that's how we felt as she discussed. some classmates would even ask questions and Ge-An started getting so frustrated she even muttered under her breath: "stop asking questions." haha. it was SCARY to be beside her at this time haha, her blood was probably boiling haha. And, as we (Ge-An and I) got more frustrated, we began laughing so hard... we couldn't control it. It was kinda shameful cos it seems disrespectful considering we were right in the front row. BUT C'MON... it was already past 430!!! and WE REALLY NEEDED TO PEE!!!! our friends, Lani and Ate Chris, were telling us not to laugh; otherwise, it would be harder to control our urge but we couldn't control it. we were laughing at our frustrations...Dra. C. kept giving us "false hopes" as she said stuff like"o, you can read that na naman, just read that nalang" and then she'd go on explaining it pa rin... or, she'd close the current ppt and open a new one (done several times!)... eeeeeeh. we badly wanted to go but we couldn't and aside from that fact, it's a weekend, it's the last class of the week and we wanted to reach home ASAP to have a break! I know what you're thinking, why not go for a bladder break? well, you see, in Ge-An's terms, "badtrip un!", you go out and when you come back, you're already dismissed... i mean what the??! haaaay.


We were dismissed WAY past 430, probably 445 or 5pm. and just when Dra. C. said "okay,...." , we immediately stood up, headed to the door and walked briskly to the CR. haha! MAY POISE PA RIN AH! we didn't wait to hear what other stuff Dra. C. had to say, we left at "okay," hahahaha. Never will I forget this UTI moment, it's amazing how much torture our bladders had to go through at that time. hahahahaaaaaa! laughtrip!

first week of summer

fast-paced. that's probably one word i'd use to describe summer class. shed's hectic in a way, it seems amazing to think how it's already been one week, if you're talking about the time past. BUT, if you're talking about the stress factor involved, it probably feels like it's been 2-3 weeks already! Luckily, i've had some friends from both my cliques with me in class (Ge-An and ate Chris from the "gossip girlz"; Carlann and Diana from the "beauty and brains society")... and hey, I met a new friend! haha... soooo kiddy-like huh. Thing is though, I'm badly missing my other friends -- Rox, Glace, LA, Keni - who are classmates with Bea and Carisse (whom I also miss). Unfortunately, our sched was changed. At first, our MWF sched would permit us to mingle with each other during breaks... but now, that's gone! We won't even have the chance to meet up on TTh as well cos then, they're class is in the morning and by the time they're sent home, that's the time we head on over to school. sad.

The plus side of summer class is that you somehow get to "escape the heat" cos of the aircon in school but man oh man! on the first day, either there wasn't any aircon or it was really weak. IT WAS SO HOT! the TORTURE! And on that day, I practically can't count the number of times I went over to Gym3... yes, part of the reason was I accompanied some friends for fitting and part of the reason was because the aircon in Belles was sooo cool. haay, sarap! haha. probably, for this day, ginawa namin tambayan ang Belles, although we really couldn't stay in there forever, nakakahiya eh... so we kept coming back and forth, back and forth. haha. actually, I did this for the entire week! haha... for various reasons... accompanying friends, inquiring about the uniform's style ( I wanted to make sure I got things down to the very finest of details before I had more sets made elsewhere... haha OC?!), exercise (hey! cos of my class sked now, I'd only have the weekends to do my usual jogging.... so this ought to be better than nothing to add up to my daily physical activities)... and of course, the aircon (who could ever forget the beloved aircon? haha).


Overall, I'm still pretty much "enjoying" summer class cos (aside from the aircon), there aren't much people around, and there aren't any of those annoying koreans around (well, okay, maybe just a few)... it isn't green invasion with all those people from the lower levels. ick!

Another happy news is that I've finally gotten my clinical uniform today (set1, made by Belles.... it's "free" cos it's included in the tuition... haayst. unfair!). I got to fit it yesterday, haha, luckily I accompanied ate Chris to get her uniform (which I was going to borrow so I could show it to my dressmaker). I was shocked to see my name on their board... under the list of those for fitting. It was a bit loose so I had to have a second fitting today during break time (despite my hunger pangs... and carlann's as well). Then, I finally got to get it at the end of the day. Went with Ge-An whose uniform was now ready for fitting. Oh, the hilarious moment of Ge-An! I couldn't get over it... I STILL CAN'T get over it till now... haha. "bakit, parang masikip ata"... haha. I won't post the details for Ge-An's sake, it's soooo... ummm.... how should I say it... DEGRADING. haha! peace Ge-An!!!! =D


Additional update (although I don't know if good or bad) is that I've gotten my duty sched. 2 weeks of duty, that's 51 hours hospital exposure. And, I even have MIDNIGHT scheds!!! oh man...

REJOICE!!!

Well, we finally had our battery exam today. Oh, it feels so goooood to finally have the wreck out of your mind. here's to capping!!! weee!!!! well, okay, there's still our grades for them to evaluate... but that doesn't worry me at all since you won't feel the pressure of it, the pressure of some procedure you have to undergo.

there were four parts to the exam... part 1 included English 1 & 2, Algebra, (gen & inorganic) Chemistry. part 2 was composed of GenPsych, Philosophy, Biochem, Logic, and Biology. Part 3 was made up of PHC 1&2, Anatomy and Physiology, and Health Ethics. and the last part, part 4, was Physics, Nutrition, SocioAnthro, and English3. 20 questions were provided for each subject. That's a total of 17 subjects, 340 questions. woah.


As we were about to begin our part 3 test, Miss Alfi (our year level coordinator, and one of our CIs) announced that they've already began checking our earlier tests.. everyone reacted, noise filled the air. then when things seemed to "hushen" up a bit, Ms Alfi continued... "Fem even got a perfect score in algeb". everyone reacted, including me! i was so shocked i actually screamed, i think. hehe. well,well... 20 points down and, ... as Jerald (who was on my left) said, "320 more to go". haaaay. =)

I have a dream.....

Last night, 26 Feb 2006, I once again dreamt of him. I’ve always dreamt of him recently but in a not so good way. it's as though he's mad (well, kinda... but not like a raging bull) at me or something. but in my dream last night, he wasn't really mad (again, like a raging bull) but he was in his usual way in which he was. we had the same "cold" situation in which we currently do. he had this indifferent air of some sort of which presently is. in which, I hope you get the point. moving on....

it started of that way. I even remember as point where his best bud told me to give her a call at 8707-somethingsomething. can’t remember the entire number now. but anyway, i guess, that's irrelevant to the story. to our story.

i remember me being with his youngest sis when vanity just hit us and we just started playing around with her digicam... just as though we were that close (but the truth is we're just casual friends...something like that). anyway, we were fronting a mirror which is located beside a door to another room (kinda imagine the bellevue suite with a room adjacent to the living room/kitchen. imagine the mirror to the left of that door). the door was open and he was in that room with some other people. he was just sitted there, looking at us. after some shots (his sis and i were taking pictures of ourselves, remember), he motioned his sis to approach him. she did and left her cam with me. after a few moments, she made her way back and he stood following her. i hoped he would come and join us for some pictures those i highly doubted that somehow. that's why it was such a surprise that he sat next to me on the floor. he stayed on my right and his sis on my left. oh how cute! his other sis was on our farther right and we called out to her to join us. think she said she'd join in later. KJ. haha. so, we "moved on with our lives" and started to take some pics.

i'm shocked and touched at the fact that he had his arm on me... just like those days. at one point, we decided to use the camera's timer... and he even suggested like "3.1 seconds" and laughed. how lame of him. but still, i miss his "jokes", and no matter how lame, i love 'em. so there, we had the timer running and were waiting for it to go off so we could have our shot. it took quite some time and he said something like "ang tagal naman". and at that moment, since we were fronting the mirror, i saw him turn his head more towards my direction and he quickly gave me a smooch on my cheek. i felt so happy and relieved (and of course, giddy). so sad that it was only a dream.


at least i dreamt of him kissing me, somehow it made me remember that time (a little more than 3 years ago) that he implanted a kiss on my cheek for the very first time (and only time, if you're talking bout an actual lip-cheek contact). somehow, i needed to remember that feeling because as of now, i know that THAT IS a fact. he did kiss me. but i felt as though i wanted to question that now. it's been so long ago now. the feeling's something like "i know it but is it really". it's like saying "i exist... but how do i know that". it's like a fact that's taught to you by science / history where your mind knows it, your conscious of what has happened but that's all there is to it. it's only your mind that tells you that now and not your senses, not your very own self. and it's kinda hard knowing that sometimes the mind (and even the senses actually) can mislead you. but at least now, it feels as though i've relieved the experience again. it's really hard to explain it here. but i'm hoping you get the point.


and in case he sees this, I’m kinda hoping he knows it's him i'm talking about. just ask if it's so and I’d most readily admit my thoughts... all i can say for now is "I MISS HIM"

my concerns

well, whew! how tiring our sched was over the past few days. It all started last Saturday, I guess... because after such a week, we still had to go to school for the APSA ANP (assessment for nursing skills???) exam. That's gonna be one of our screening tests before we can get to move on into the capping ceremony. So, anyway, the exam was really tough considering that it was just supposed to be an IQ test (that is, it's supposed to be based on common sense knowledge)... well, okay, it wasn't really tough I guess. it was just hard (and challenging???) because we were given such a limited amount of time. What I remember was the first portion of the exam with some subtests (those I remember were: General Psychology, College Algebra, Physical Science, Life Science, Communication Skills... I'm not sure if I left out any more subtests). We were given 20 minutes to answer each subtest. That was quite OK for some parts (Physical and Life Science) since there probably were only about 30-45 items. But as for Gen. Psych and Comm. Skills, there were probably about 50-80 questions there. As for Algebra, sure, there was roughly only 30-45 questions there too BUT you really had to analyze ALL the problems and solve (come to think of it, we also had to solve some items in Physical Science).

so, anyway.....

after APSA, despite feeling like we were mentally drained, our class still had an exam in Physics to attend to. owwww. we couldn't think clearly at all. Each and everyone of us probably failed, a lot got lower than 10... and, not to brag(cos it's still really low),I was probably one of the high ones already with a score of 12! 12! over what, 20?! haaay.

The next day, I woke up dreading the day as it was my only "day off" (it'd be the same next weekend cos of some meeting I'm attending, so it's like I only get 1 weekend for 3 weeks!). ugh. Spent the day exercising myself to de-stress myself again.


To skip things, let's move on to Tuesday... RLE's Community Implementation Day. kakapagod! and as if that weren't enough, we still had a Physics lecture to attend that afternoon. haaay. I went home sick. literally.

Lastly, today, we've been bombarded with tests! PE exam, Consti, Phil Lit long test... haaay. Plus, still had to do my STS reaction paper due tomorrow. And to think next week's midterm exams. bleck. I gotta pass my IC requirements by then. oh, good luck. i don't even want to have to think of our Community Diagnosis and also, our Investigatory Project. aack.

The only thing I look forward to within next week: bonding with my friends after we get our midterm exams done! triple celebration:

1. 2 years worth of friendship
2. the end of midterms
3. Valentine's Day (of course!)

And where the heck do we plan to go? SHOOTING!!! yes, shooting on Valentines... how appropriate. And, I'm not talking bout paintball shooting, mind you... I'm talking real gunpwder shooting action, baby!

ups and downs

it was such a sad thing school days are back. only one week of class has gone by so far and I'm feeling stressed out already... or I don't know, maybe it's because I'm no longer used to the pressure after the vacation... or maybe it's beacause we've been dumped by lots of requirements once again. And no, not much from our major nsg. subjects... but more of from those minor onesl. how irritating.

Woke up really early yesterday to a nice cool rainy downfall. Oh, how much I wanted to return to sleep but I couldn't so I thought of starting with all the homeworks...
Phil Lit - US colonialism
Health Eco - demand for RNs in the US -- today and future; Australia's GNP/GDP, life expectancy, leading causes of mortality, blahblahblah...
PHC - report (BCPs - already bought actual pills from mercury over the week)
RLE - survey tallying for our community diagnosis
Consti - report (political parties); questions to be answered (re: Estrada voting in the last election; decision on the Hello Garci scandal)
Nutrition - report (hospital diet)
did I get to do them? naaah. I started with surfing the net.... then after a few hours, my nephew came and took the computer away from me (to play some games). anyway....
as I was preparing lunch, I suddenly remembered my shots. how random. I'm suposed to have my shots for hepa A&B that day. Got me excited as I love having injections. So we headed to the hospital after lunch, after bringing my nephew home. The doctor wasn't there. How annoying. I called the hospital that morning, they told me she would. So, anyway, it was some nurse who gave it to me. oh joy. sadly it would be another 5 years before I start receiving these shots again (for the booster).
In the evening there's the usual mass I go to but after which, we had not the usual practice but a party celebrating the 25th anniversary of the niños y niñas de maria. it was kinda sad since we weren't really complete. had a lot of photo taking with Cheska... oh, and speaking of photos, got to see some really old photos of our choir way back. it was soo nice to "reminisce" and see how my ate(s) and kuya(s) looked way back when. Came home really late na. thought it was only 11 pa nga eh. Sadly now, I've got tons of things to accomplish by this day. haaay. quite impossible.

Oh, and for the sake of Diana wanting to see that dress I wore that night (which I had gotten at Maldita), I've attached a pic taken by Cheska.

Happy?

hehe. yes, there's a question mark there.

After so long, I finally saw it, the announcement that we could now get our BLS (Basic Life Support) IDs and Certificates from the CON (College of Nursing). YAY! after completing that CPR with AED (Automated External Defibrillator) course last 22 Nov. 2007, we were told that we would get our IDs that coming Monday.... but we never got it. Till Friday came and there was some announcement that we could finally get it by 2pm... but no. Too bad. It was the only thing I could think of all day. haha. Ge-An was laughing at how eager I was to get the ID... hello, siya rin naman, gusto nang kunin! :P When we asked Ms. Alfi (one of our CIs), she told us that CHEERS was just on their way to our school. haay. Later that day, I saw the CHEERS people... waaah, I really wanted to get the ID that day.... but wasn't able to.


So, finally, today came. I saw the announcement posted on the door of the CON office. Actually, for our section, we should have gotten it yesterday. But unfortunately, I didn't know that for two reasons:

1. you could hardly see the announcement posted, it was posted WAY below eye level.
2. yesterday was our RLE day. So I didn't get to really pass by the nursing office.

I'm happy cos it's like now that I have the ID (and certificate), I finally have the privilege of performing CPR. But, in a way, I'm disappointed because I don't really like how the ID looked, its quality... waaah! It was made of something like cardboard. I was expecting some better since it's an ID. it's supposed to last. plus, CHEERS is affiliated with the American Safety and Health Institute (ASHI) and Emergency Care and Safety Institute (ECSI)...both international affiliations.