loved having Dr. Dino as a CI (well, not really for his looks... as that's jai's high already haha)... at least kasi he really teaches us how to make our NCPs (Nursing Care Plans). he was the only one who ever showed us our results and the corrections we need to make. yes! i got a 29 and a 28.75 respectively for the past two nights... that's out of 30 ha! wooo! and tonight's NCP grade is still to be revealed :P
anyway, that's already FAR from my SUPPOSED topic.
there's this kid @ choir who practically everyone (if not already everyone) finds so infuriating. and since time immemorial, she's been bugging cheska and i (thankfully, not much of me now)... only to find out, she's been bugging everyone na pala... including with phone calls at 6am! (thankfully ours didn't get that far so as to ruin our private lives:P)... but with what i've seen with Cheska's case, it's just... *gasp* she's been asking that they go out just the two of them. that's ok if you guys were at least friends... but from a complete stranger?! MY GAWHD!!! she's even been asking jhingle, phogie, and company to include her in their sleep-overs/"lakads". haha! and, she so refers us (yes, all of us) as her BESTFRIENDS! eeeew! social climber! :P
anyway, it's amazing how cheska, jhingle, phogi and i collaborated with each other to "eradicate" this "road block" in our lives :P
it all started Saturday evening during the 6pm mass (she even asked me during the mass if she could join us ha... haha, well, that's not really a big deal, but i just had to mention)... and she was bugging me as the priest was talking with questions like where's ate cheska? why isn't she here? is she busy? blahblahblah... i can't remember her exact questions as i wasn't really paying attention to what she was saying... whoops! bad me. just for the purpose of a fact, tho, let me just reiterate the fact that she did mention the following:
- cheska's her favorite ate
- she has only us as her friends
- she refers to us as her best friends
- she's got no other friends but us
- she's got no friends at school
- she eats lunch alone @ school (just wanted to make sure you get the point)
- she cries (i don't know why she has to mention this every time we apparently do something wrong to her... how shallow! how sensitive! how pathetic!)
anyway, that night, we didn't have any choir practice so i went home and decided to go turn on the net to watch some movies online (bedtime stories sucked, mind you! i didn't have the guts to finish it... the hamster whatchamacallit was kinda cute tho)... somewhere at the start of the movie, i receive a msg from her at multiply telling me na galit daw si cheska and asking me why...blahblahbalh... iyak na daw siya ng iyak. pweh! i was trying to prolong the agony :P and just replied "how'd you tell" haha pang-asar?! so, then, already consulted ches as well as to whether or not i should go all frank with her (sobrang sensitive kasi eh, nakakainis, i don't wanna waste my words on her... so in the end, tried to be nice pa rin... bata pa kasi eh, baka maging traumatic sa kanya:P)
ate nicole was online that night, working... she messaged me with something like enjoy your movies... and i just had to tell her that i couldn't enjoy it cos of someone... haha. she eventually started giving some advices (well, lots of em actually).. and they were pretty good! hilarious! haha! wonder why i didn't think of those :P
in the end,somewhere between that night and today, the kid still insisted we admit that we don't like her... haha. so we did, each of us replied to her multiply as to why we didn't like her... haha... this was my reply (as cautiously worded as possible hehehe):
don't get me wrong ha... you just wanted answers so im gonna try to give them to
you. and just a warning, im a brutally frank and straightforward person. i say
things as they are. im not really good in sugar-coating stuff,... although i am
gonna try to make this as easy as possible for you to digest... but i cant
guarantee that you're not gonna be disappointed/hurt with what i say.
tho, for the record, let me say, cheska's right. not everything we say is about
you. we weren't referring to you when we mentioned L. that's another business.
there's nothing wrong in trying to be friends, but just in our point of view,
its your manner of making friends that's wrong. you're only pushing them farther
away. alam mo na pala na makulit ka eh, why didn't you go easy on that then?
kung sabihin, para na siguro kami nasasakal or something.. it's like you were
being way too pushy/assertive of yourself on us. you can't just be close to
anyone you like, you can't just make friends with someone simply by saying that
you like them, or that you're close,or that you wanna be friends with them.
that's not how simple friendship is. acquiantance maybe, but not friendship. it
takes time to be considered close, to be bestbuds, to be in a barkada. its not
only a matter of sharing common interests or points of view. all us in the choir
have known each other for several years now, that's how we came to know each
other. take my following relations between people as example: with your ate
cheska we didn't become bestfriends the instant we met, the instant we first
joined choir, it took us years. then, lets say, with your ate jingle and ate
phogi... we've also known each other since we were kids (noting that i've been
in the choir since i was in 6th grade). i think now, you could somehow consider
us friends, but we're not really bestfriends. we're not really that close. it's
not that i don't like them, it's just that i never really had the opportunity to
get to know them that much. so, now, they have their own circle of friends, and
so do i. that's as of the moment. i'm not saying that our groups are rivals,
competing against each other but just that we "function" under seperate
barkadas.... but we're basically friends... we generally get along. it's just
that in their barkada, they make their own plans, their own gimmicks... they
don't invite cheska & i but do we feel bad? no. it's their choice. no hard
feelings. that's because we accept reality and we respect their decision to do
things on their own. we accept the fact that we aren't really that close to them
to be doing stuff together. we don't push ourselves to them saying "oh please,
let us go with you the next time you do this, do that.. blahblahblah". that's
their thing, they wouldn't want to let "strangers" suddenly into the barkada
hang-outs, just like me and my barkada in school.
you mention not having friends at school, then why don't you reflect on that?
honestly, if it makes you feel better, i was partly also that way during my
freshman year in HS, i also ate lunch alone... but c'mon! that didn't make me
crave attention from others. i didn't go around telling people how sad my life
is. i tried to look what must be wrong.
think of it this way, if you can't get friends at school, friends who are the
same age as you, what makes you think you'd be able to get friends outside
school, especially those older than you... do you think that because we're
older, we'll understand and we'll accept you in our clan just like that? well,
that may be true but is that what you really want? a life of pity from others?
STOP SELF-PITY! and don't expect others to pity you as well. that's another
thing dragging you down,y'know. it's annoying. so you eat lunch alone, SO WHAT?!
who cares? that doesn't necessarily mean you're a loser. just be yourself. by
you're being self-pitiful, you may just as well be trying to be someone you're
not which may also be another point. you may say otherwise but others would have
a gut feeling. they may not exactly be able to pinpoint that fact but they'll
have a sense that you're just trying to be someone you're not.
just be yourself. and learn to respect other people's decision/reaction. respect
their privacy, their time, their lives. matuto kang makiramdam sa kapwa. kung
ayaw nila, di huwag, don't force it. YOU CAN'T FORCE EVERYBODY TO LIKE YOU.
and now, she's saying things like: okay i'll just wait for how many years... but is there a possibility that you'll still consider me a friend? pffft! DON'T YOU JUST GET IT KID?! for the record, may i just mention that we (at least cheska and i) mentioned that she better try looking for people her own age. i mean, she aint smart enough for us! :P and i mean, seriously, she's gotta mature A LOT for me to at least like her. c'mon! y'know how i like dealing with mature people as i've grown up with older people! cheska's probably the only exception to the mature people rule i have going on in my life hahaha :P
