missing my BCF friends

browsing through my photos on friendster (cos i had nothing to do), aside from being amazed at how obese i was back then,....memories flood my mind. and i say, i really do miss my friends, Bea and Carisse. They've been my "soul sisters" since i've stepped into college grounds in Sville. United by the bond of being the aspirers to the MD title i think, haha.

The sad thing now is that we don't get to interact at all anymore, apart maybe from hi-hello's. And if we do get to talk, things are way different. i don't know if it's just me, or even they notice but it does kinda get awkward. on my thinking, i'm guessing it's because we've been separated for such a long time (currently 4 semesters and 1 summer) and to think we've only been together for 1 semester. That may be one predisposing factor, another may be me getting to interact with other people. All this time that we've been placed apart, i thought the good thing about me being separated from them would mean me getting to actually have to socialize myself with other people and meet a new circle of friends. Well, that did happen as I joined my current clique now. That did have a bad side as well, as it turns out. That's because now that I've had new friends, I no longer bothered to have to look for Bea/Carisse during breaks to spend time with them. I was satisfied with my friends from within my class. Seems as if i took things for granted, huh. But that was because I knew that Bea, Carisse and I had this special bond that we would always stay friends no matter what all the way up till med school (which is now in our near future i suppose)... and i do intend to hold on to that "sisterhood", even tho it may not seem so at the moment. Now, it seems as though i don't know them any longer. :( it feels horrible.

But, hmmm... i don't know where I'm going with this post for all I know right now is that i miss them so much. I'm not sorry that i've gained new friends, it's just that i miss the "old" ones as well. we may have lost contact (or whatever you may call it) but i do know they're the ones I can count on through thick and thin , and we'll always be there for each other. I hope this is just a phase that we're going through, thanks to all the harsh things happening in the world we revolve in right now (which i'm totally dreading... I've long realized it was a mistake for me to be here, the nursing life is DEFINITELY not me at all).

joy

What a day. 8AM-4PM, I had my duty rotation at Tuloy Foundation. Thank God we were sent home early, and we got to convince our CI not to let us go back to school anymore for library work... well, i don't know if we really got to convince her, but hey, bottomline is, plans were changed. So, after, immediately headed to Festival (at about 230) for my appointment with Dra. Nubla at 6pm. It was a good thing Maricar was headed that way too, at least may kasabay ako.

So, the instant I arrived @ Festi, I changed out of my RLE uniform and into civilian attire, finished my lunch, and brushed my teeth in preparation for the appointment. I wasted my time window shopping. Got to meet up with my parents at 4. Admittingly, I was late for my appointment! I could not believe! I FEEL SO ASHAMED. The reason? my parents decided on eating before my appointment, so fine. 530. great. 15 minutes to eat since i wanted to be at healthway 15 mins before schedule (parang duty ba? haha). But the resto took 15mins before handing out our orders. fine. I'd just have to eat 5 mins, brush my teeth another 5 mins, and another 5 mins would be for proceeding to healthway. i did stay true to eating only 5 minutes, leaving my fries to my mom. but, the thing is, i like to take time brushing my teeth. so, h'yeah. i took 10 minutes to brush. so, i arrived at the clinic at about 6:05pm. I was hoping Dra. wasn't there yet but as I was registering, I asked my mom to ask if Dra. Nubla was there already. The girl at the counter made a phone call and after, informed us that she already was there, waiting for us. AAACK! I practically shrieked in panic. Mom told me to go ahead; she finished up registering for me. Dad knocked at the door (I was shy to do so), and h'yeah. She was there, prepared already. I FELT SO ASHAMED that I failed to ask if she's been there for some time na.


My lower braces could not be placed yet. She still had to move my upper set of teeth a bit more forward. So, she tightened them up again, really tight according to her... and she's so shocked that I could not feel anything at all. I could feel her tightening the braces but I couldn't feel the tightness AFTER the whole 'procedure'. She even asked me if I wanted to have her tighten it more pa, sabi ko okay lang, pwede. She took a look and said na sobra na talaga sikip niya, she couldn't believe it was nothing for me. haha tawa na lang siya. although, somehow it is scary. does that mean i'm actually masochistic... does that mean i love pain?! i like thinking i am quite like that but i never thought it would go that far as me not experiencing any pain/difficulty at all.... even that dentist who fixes my dental caries is shocked, saying that i've got a high tolerance for pain. So, bottomline, as Dra. Nubla said, ibig sabihin nun, pag-umaray daw ako, aray na daw talaga un... masakit na daw talaga. haha! =)


After my braces had been tightened, nahiya ako!!! cos fine, she did the usual physiotherapy massages... but aside from that, she actually gave me some neck/shoulder/back massages... or what she termed 'stretches' i think. still! nakakahiya.... pero, yeah, sarap ng feeling. I just felt awkward as she was doin the massages... kasi naman, imagine naman your doctor/your dentist giving you a massage. hala! haha.. so, again, awkward. plus the fact that I was late. it doesn't matter na 5 mins lang yan, or whatever... according to one of the ethico-moral maxims: A little more or less does not change the substance of an act. so late pa rin ako.. huhuhu. =(

But still, i'm overwhelmed with joy talaga that she (Dr. Nubla) is the one handling my case. i swear i can't get over the fact that i love her to death! she's really a nice person, sooobrang bait.

Personally, I've always felt ill-fated about DMDs (especially as confirmed by those two "nut head wackos", Dra. T and Dra C). But Dra. Nubla's an exception to that. You can't believe how much i look forward to our appointments. I don't know, there must be something different in her talaga... kind, friendly, intelligent (according to my mom, kasi as i see it she seems to remember every minute detail... and to think, di lang naman kasi ako ung patient niya, she's got a lot of other patients pa, so xempre... i was wondering how she could remember all her clients plus the minute details nga like what kind of 'elastic band' whtachamacallit i like.). I seem to have trusted her so easily from the very first time we met her, that very first consultation with her.

Haaay nako, till here na nga lang. it's soooo long na... plus, got some reports to prepare for.