Wednesday, May 28, 2008

of surgery and ortho

Started when I visited a TMJ specialist regarding my TMJ syndrome about 3 weeks ago. well, okay, it wasn't yet that but it could probably have been if I hadn't seeked treatment early, it's an abnormality to have your jaw click at least once a day for about two weeks (at that time). She had advised me to get some x-rays and other stuff done before she could go on with treatment, which consisted of having a splint (6-10 months) followed by ortho (at least 2 years). had to wait for another week for the release of the remaining results (photos and cast took 7 days). was able to contact another TMJ specialist (thanks to my tita's connections, she's a dentist kasi). decided to try out that TMJ specialist my tita referred us to last night cos she was nearer our place. with the TMJ problem, appointments had to be strictly followed otherwise it's back to zero daw and we'd have to start from scratch. then, the EVIL part begins..

the TMJ specialist, and some other dentist (a friend of hers as well) took a look at my x-ray and stuff, asked me questions, blahblahblah. final conclusion: I could skip the splint part (cos it's just for relaxing my jaw muscles which i no longer need since Dr. Nubla, my former TMJ specialist, had massaged 'em and they no longer bother me). Anyway, I could now move on instead to the second phase of treatment... ortho (aka braces). Sure, I had wanted braces as a kid (esp my mom, she had always wanted me to have 'em, so she's sooo excited now) BUT, c'mon! i don't wanna have grad pics with my "braces smile". they're cute but I don't wanna look into those photos and see those contraptions! and now, the sad part is... it's our capping in June.. plus, in two years time, I'm graduating from the BSN program... tho yeah, heck, i'd rather have that in my BSN grad pics than at my med school pics... haha!

Somehow, i was worried... but soon eased into the thought of it.... at least it'd help me in my diet (di ka daw makakakain eh haha). plus, kuya Beboy, a friend of mine, just had braces recently, and it did suit him very well. cute nga sa kanya eh. so, i thought: heck, if i was gonna be as cute as him, the pain would be worth it... haha! yeah, the pain and the torture from my friends... haha. ngayon pa lang inaasar na ako nina Ge-An and ate Chris eh, sila pa lang naman kasi may alam... sila ni Tabs (and Carlann's reaction? excited? haha... gusto rin niya eh).

So, anyway, there. I was excited to actually get braces so i was hoping: fine. sana braces na lang, wag na splint. Cos, I saw the splint on someone (yoko na sabihin kung sino at baka ma-offend pa), it doesn't look good. sure, it's transparent but it's noticeable. looks dirty or something. and the proof na it's not only me being praning: my friends agreed to that fact.

Anyway, my wish came true BUT there's a catch. Instead of having that splint, that part of the therapy was "replaced" by something else. I HAVE TO UNDERGO SURGERY. okay, not bad. surgery, sure... but no, it's DENTAL SURGERY. gasp. so, fine they're gonna just remove my 4 molars. my 3rd molars. no biggie. SARCASTICALLY SPEAKING. i love my babies. i don't want 'em removed. i took extra good care of 'em. it pains me. sniff.

I wanted to faint right then and there! i could feel weakness in my knees... then when i asked, they both reassured me it would be painless. i'd have anesthesia so there'd be numbness, and heaviness, which the brain could misinterpret for pain but other than that, it's not gonna hurt one bit daw. how about after operation? oh, after the operation, of course it's gonna hurt somehow. nanggigil talaga ako! THAT was the part I was worrying about! darn it.

Oh well, but there's no turning back now. I'm scheduled for surgery this Friday morning at 10AM... one week after would be removal of the stitches... and a few days later i think, would be the ortho.... which I'm finally excited for. just don't wanna think of the extraction.... err, surgery na lang. it's much more soothing to my ears.

Friday, May 23, 2008

a revelation

got to have a 3G experience today. 3G standing for Gossip Girlz Gimmick.

the day started with a field trip to RITM (Research Institute for Tropical Medicine). The night before (last night), Carisse and Bea were inviting me to ride with them but I just had to decline. I found the "call time" too early (630am! I'm just waking up at that time). Kinda sad tho cos as Carisse said, we rarely get to hang-out now, and they're missing me (awww. of course I miss them too).

NOTE: BitChFit Inseparablez (BCF in short)/ Inseparable DLs / Beauty and Brains Society- Carisse, Bea, Carlann, Diana, and I
GossipGirlz - Rox, Glace, ate Chris, Ge-An, Joy, LA, Keni, Lani (our newest member), and I.

Anyway, at first, I asked Carisse if they wanted to hit the malls after the activity and she said we're definitely gonna.... to play CS. the thing is, that ain't really my thing. i don't wanna get addicted again to computer gaming. i was kinda bummed but just intended to join for the sake of getting to bond with them.

During the program proper, I once again had felt the disadvantage of having both your cliques at one venue. I didn't know who to stay with. So, I devised a plan of action. i'd go back and forth through the two groups. haha. kakapagod lang nga. so i said, fine. i'd stay with Carisse now then after the break, if any, i'd stay with the GossipGirlz. While with the BCF, the sad part was that I felt as though I hardly knew them. We were still friends, the bond was still there but I felt distant. Like I had told Carisse last night, blame the institution. we never hang-out anymore and thus, we only get to say HI's to each other, but we never really had the time for communication. After a few minutes, my friends from the other circle were calling me. They were having some photoshoot and of course I had to be there. MULTIPLY!!! errr, i mean MULTI-FLY!!!! And, I ended up staying with them throughout the whole activity. That film on rabies cases, it really scared the hell outta me. gave me the shivers. di tuloy ako makakain ng sisig for lunch, much as I wanted to cos it might contain animal brain, tapos it might not be well-cooked... tapos, ayun na, baka magka-rabies na ako (yes, you can get rabies thru this way daw, sabi ng asa RITM).... oh no! sisig-o-phobia! haha.

After, I asked Rox if they had any plans of bonding after the activity and tho she hadn't brought any money, she agreed to the plan and said we could have our bonding at festi. So, to cut things short, after careful deliberation, I ended joining the GossipGirlz. Sorry Carisse & Bea!!! You know I still love you guyz!

At festi, we couldn't enjoy ourselves. we weren't free kasi may isang naki-epal (as i think they would call it). Well, actually she's okay with me kasi i haven't really interacted with that girl pa but they say she's got some attitude problem. So, they were trying to think of ways to get all frank with her, which I couldn't do (despite my being straightforward) cos i barely know her. and, i kinda feel sorry for her since everyone has their back against her daw. yes, everyone, not just them. so, that's another reason daw why they didn't want her around. if people found out daw that she was with us, LOSER!

To highlight the main issue of this blog, a friend and I got to chat one-on-one. She opened up her insights regarding my other group of friends. I'm glad she understands how I'm their friend and yet, she opened up to me. And I'm also glad she did so, cos in that way I realize that I'm not the only one who has felt that feeling. I'm not gonna elaborate on what was told to me for the sake of that person, for the sake of confidentiality. but what I'm gonna say is that regarding my other friends, I do feel the sense that they're pretty hard to get into as a group, they feel as tho they're exclusive or something. I feel as though they think they're gods and they choose to socialize with people of equal class/intelligence. I feel bad because somehow, I feel like they belittle my new group of friends. I mean, I don't think they actually are like that but that's how it feels like. Since the start of summer, since i'm classmates with a few friends from both clans, I've made the effort to introduce them to each other in the hopes of getting them to collaborate, in the hopes of making our groups merge, in the hopes of having a larger circle of friends. But it seems as though they aren't welcome to that idea. Sure, they sit with us during lunch breaks but that's it. they just stay with us in our table, they don't even mingle with us, they don't even at least TRY to.

According to that someone, I used to be that way too but now, I've changed. And, if it's for that reason, I'm glad I've changed. I'm glad I've been hanging out with this other group as well to balance myself.

Thursday, May 08, 2008

Mcdo and odd english


haha. oh well, i just felt the urge to blog of things that happened today for no apparent reason aside from the fact that I've got nothing better to do.... except study of course, but ya'll know how I ALWAYS hold that back (haha. I can just imagine how someone's gonna react to that part).

Anyway, today, my day started at Mcdo. It's a Thursday so my classes aren't till 1pm. We went to Mcdo to see Viiu, my 6 years old goddaughter. She's part of the kiddie crew there. She was just sooo adorable, and soooo oozing with confidence. kinda wish I was like her. funniest part was when she was taking our orders, my dad ordered coke then she goes and says: "what kind of coke? sprite?"
my dad: "No, coke"
Viiu: "what kind? sprite?"
my dad: "no, the regular kind, the black one"
Viiu: "which one? light, zero....."
everyone: "the regular one"
Viiu goes and sees someone getting the drink... and says: "oh, Coca-Cola!"

my gosh! i bet the Mcdo staff were getting panicky cos of her.... natataranta na sila dun haha! We brought KOBE along as well, and since he wanted a toy, Viiu told him he had to first get a happy meal.... she asked what happy meal he wanted by enumerating the choices he had. It was taking some time for KOBE to make-up his mind as what to order (in addition to his chocolate sundae) and Viiu goes and decides for him and tells one of the waitresses: "spaghetti. he wants the spaghetti happy meal." hahaha.


After that experience, headed straight to school (of course, we took KOBE home first). ... and okay, after grabbing something to serve as my lunch in the grocery so I could eat it in school (cos thanks to Dr. Adiviso, much as I LOVE MCDO, I felt quite some guilt to eat Mcdo now, for various reasons.... but I assure you, I don't have a phobia of Mcdo. i still support them. it's just for this time). Anyway, it was such a bummer. I went to school for nothing. Yes, 4.5 hours of nothingness. We literally had nothing to do in lab... and yet Dra C. refuses to let us leave early or at least give us some breaks... waaaaaah!!!!


the sad part tho is that during the review for our upcoming lab exam, I noticed something. and THANK GOD IT WASN'T ONLY ME WHO HAS THIS FEELING! Ge-An also confirmed it. it seemed like I no longer grasp our lessons this days... the thing's they speak of aren't of normal language anymore that it would actually take some time for it to load on our brain cells. oh man, please speak NORMAL english. Now, that's really a proof I gotta study.....when i manage to run out of excuses to NOT do otherwise. haha =)

Tuesday, May 06, 2008

ruined library

It's probably enough a miracle that I'm actually getting to write this right now. haha OA.

Never mind what happened on earlier during the day but as we (Ge-An, Lani, ate Chris and I) were waiting to be dismissed so we could head on to our homes and get on with our lives, something unexpected happened. SOMETHING TOTALLY UNEXPECTED. We were in the lib at the time (and yeah, that IS quite unexpected i guess haha) and our beloved Dra. C. wasn't there as our prof (since she was sick, and to think we still saw her yesterday as she proctored for our exam in NCM100)... so, the other Dra. was the substitute. another unexpected thing I guess... but, anyway, as I was saying, ... SOMETHING REALLY UNEXPECTED happened.


As Ge-An was browsing through some yearbook (just to make time pass by I guess), some noises we heard. I wondered where that could have come from but didn't mind. The sounds lasted only a few seconds and they were just quite soft... well, not really a thundering sound, just loud enough to hear. I easily dismissed those sounds as some books sliding on some shelf, probably from where Ge-An had gotten the yearbook or something else somewhere. After some few moments, we heard the sounds again... then again. We looked at each other and wondered... "San un? Ano un?". Then someone pointed out to the side of our table (I guess it was Lani... and I guess some people from the other tables as well noticed). It was right beside our table. It was right near Ge-An and I. The tiles were collapsing (errr, is that the right term???).... 6 of them (and considering the tiles in the lib were pretty big tiles). they were lifted quite high off the ground! Holy sh*t!!! I stood up thinking we should vacate the table immediately but not one of them was getting up from their seats. We were just staring at the tiles. I was partly scared, partly amazed. Someone (I guess it was Tita Joy) reacted and told us to get out cos it was gonna "open up farther". THAT was when we moved quickly. I tried getting a picture of it but I was quite far that it couldn't be seen so I moved in a bit closer as Lani had told me to. I tried getting the shot again but I couldn't, the light was bouncing off the tiles... I couldn't move in closer or look for another angle as I was trying to be discreet. hello, nakakahiya kaya sa mga librarian noh! haha

We were all trying to think of the possibilities of that happening... earthquake, pressure, etc. we tried to think of physics... haha. and Angelo was sooo funny. He said something like: so pano yan? ano ibig sabihin niyan? wala nang pasok? haha kala mo concerned eh, kala mo nag-iisip rin ng dahilan kung bakit nangyari un... pala concerned lang sa kung may pasok pa o wala... haha!

Friday, May 02, 2008

When you gotta go, you gotta go

WARNING: this post may probably be not for the faint-hearted... haha!

hilarious moment during today's microbio period. since the start of this week, our prof (Dra. C.) refuses to give us our early dismissals... and she really takes up the whole time. But, of course, as students, we try to "bargain" with her.... so, for today, we were asking her to dismiss us already (considering it's a weekend and we're all itching to go home). we say 4; she bargains 415 (our real time is till 430). Miss, 405! the reply: "we'll see..."


The room we were in was extremely cold (well, okay, according to Ge-An). I didn't feel the coldness until the later part of the lectures... and because of the coldness, we felt the urge to go. But we didn't want to yet cos we were expecting her to dismiss us anytime soon. it was 4, and we were expecting to be dismissed at 415 or earlier. BUT. BUT a lot of "but"s came. after discussing our research works, she moved on to having a "short" review for the upcoming exams on monday. whew!!! i kept trying to breathe deeply to keep me warm. and just when we thought Dra. C. was about to end her lecs (errr.... reviews)... she goes on and continues talking! just when she finally closes the current ppt presentation, she remembers something else and starts browsing through her files to open up another one!!! WHEW!!!! uggggh. WE REALLY NEED TO GOOOOOOO.... all the time, that's how we felt as she discussed. some classmates would even ask questions and Ge-An started getting so frustrated she even muttered under her breath: "stop asking questions." haha. it was SCARY to be beside her at this time haha, her blood was probably boiling haha. And, as we (Ge-An and I) got more frustrated, we began laughing so hard... we couldn't control it. It was kinda shameful cos it seems disrespectful considering we were right in the front row. BUT C'MON... it was already past 430!!! and WE REALLY NEEDED TO PEE!!!! our friends, Lani and Ate Chris, were telling us not to laugh; otherwise, it would be harder to control our urge but we couldn't control it. we were laughing at our frustrations...Dra. C. kept giving us "false hopes" as she said stuff like"o, you can read that na naman, just read that nalang" and then she'd go on explaining it pa rin... or, she'd close the current ppt and open a new one (done several times!)... eeeeeeh. we badly wanted to go but we couldn't and aside from that fact, it's a weekend, it's the last class of the week and we wanted to reach home ASAP to have a break! I know what you're thinking, why not go for a bladder break? well, you see, in Ge-An's terms, "badtrip un!", you go out and when you come back, you're already dismissed... i mean what the??! haaaay.


We were dismissed WAY past 430, probably 445 or 5pm. and just when Dra. C. said "okay,...." , we immediately stood up, headed to the door and walked briskly to the CR. haha! MAY POISE PA RIN AH! we didn't wait to hear what other stuff Dra. C. had to say, we left at "okay," hahahaha. Never will I forget this UTI moment, it's amazing how much torture our bladders had to go through at that time. hahahahaaaaaa! laughtrip!