browsing through my photos on friendster (cos i had nothing to do), aside from being amazed at how obese i was back then,....memories flood my mind. and i say, i really do miss my friends, Bea and Carisse. They've been my "soul sisters" since i've stepped into college grounds in Sville. United by the bond of being the aspirers to the MD title i think, haha.
The sad thing now is that we don't get to interact at all anymore, apart maybe from hi-hello's. And if we do get to talk, things are way different. i don't know if it's just me, or even they notice but it does kinda get awkward. on my thinking, i'm guessing it's because we've been separated for such a long time (currently 4 semesters and 1 summer) and to think we've only been together for 1 semester. That may be one predisposing factor, another may be me getting to interact with other people. All this time that we've been placed apart, i thought the good thing about me being separated from them would mean me getting to actually have to socialize myself with other people and meet a new circle of friends. Well, that did happen as I joined my current clique now. That did have a bad side as well, as it turns out. That's because now that I've had new friends, I no longer bothered to have to look for Bea/Carisse during breaks to spend time with them. I was satisfied with my friends from within my class. Seems as if i took things for granted, huh. But that was because I knew that Bea, Carisse and I had this special bond that we would always stay friends no matter what all the way up till med school (which is now in our near future i suppose)... and i do intend to hold on to that "sisterhood", even tho it may not seem so at the moment. Now, it seems as though i don't know them any longer. :( it feels horrible.
But, hmmm... i don't know where I'm going with this post for all I know right now is that i miss them so much. I'm not sorry that i've gained new friends, it's just that i miss the "old" ones as well. we may have lost contact (or whatever you may call it) but i do know they're the ones I can count on through thick and thin , and we'll always be there for each other. I hope this is just a phase that we're going through, thanks to all the harsh things happening in the world we revolve in right now (which i'm totally dreading... I've long realized it was a mistake for me to be here, the nursing life is DEFINITELY not me at all).
The sad thing now is that we don't get to interact at all anymore, apart maybe from hi-hello's. And if we do get to talk, things are way different. i don't know if it's just me, or even they notice but it does kinda get awkward. on my thinking, i'm guessing it's because we've been separated for such a long time (currently 4 semesters and 1 summer) and to think we've only been together for 1 semester. That may be one predisposing factor, another may be me getting to interact with other people. All this time that we've been placed apart, i thought the good thing about me being separated from them would mean me getting to actually have to socialize myself with other people and meet a new circle of friends. Well, that did happen as I joined my current clique now. That did have a bad side as well, as it turns out. That's because now that I've had new friends, I no longer bothered to have to look for Bea/Carisse during breaks to spend time with them. I was satisfied with my friends from within my class. Seems as if i took things for granted, huh. But that was because I knew that Bea, Carisse and I had this special bond that we would always stay friends no matter what all the way up till med school (which is now in our near future i suppose)... and i do intend to hold on to that "sisterhood", even tho it may not seem so at the moment. Now, it seems as though i don't know them any longer. :( it feels horrible.
But, hmmm... i don't know where I'm going with this post for all I know right now is that i miss them so much. I'm not sorry that i've gained new friends, it's just that i miss the "old" ones as well. we may have lost contact (or whatever you may call it) but i do know they're the ones I can count on through thick and thin , and we'll always be there for each other. I hope this is just a phase that we're going through, thanks to all the harsh things happening in the world we revolve in right now (which i'm totally dreading... I've long realized it was a mistake for me to be here, the nursing life is DEFINITELY not me at all).
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