Surprises

After weeks of late-night sleeps and dinner-less evenings, it's finally over. I can't believe it! I've finally finished with my thesis last night.... and it feels sooooo good. I actually don't care about bagging the best thesis this time around, as I did last term (tho I'm hoping I do).
I remember that pre-oral defense we had last 21 November 2005. I actually wasn't nervous at all, only eager to get out of that room and go home. I thought I was lucky that I was picked to go last but noooo.... MAN WAS I WRONG!... I have watched the panelists question my other classmates and it was not pretty.... talagang sinabon nila ung lahat! And i thought I was going to die next, I was one of those few unfortunate enough to be after the "Death Row" of our section... Ü so I really thought I was gonna be placed down REALLY bad... I already began thinking of the negative things they could say to me (especially regarding my respondents) and thought of possible ways to get myself out of trouble... I couldn't think of any one way to get out for all the possible critics that came to mind... I actually began to feel nervous once I began speaking in front, especially with classmates asking me to finish immediately since we all wanted to go home (we were 1 hr and 30 mins OT na)... to cut the story short, none of what I had expected happened... it was quite the opposite...
The panelists loved my topic so much and said not one negative thing... One actually told me, "You may have been the last but you're definitely not the least... I really love your topic,..." And another day, as I was heading to lunch, I bumped into that same panelist and she stopped me (as we were on the stairs), and said something like "Hey, I love your topic... your's my favorite... I can't wait till your final defense..." Greatest joys in my life...
I'm so proud! I did this thesis all on my own... WOW!!!! Somehow I feel relieved that my thesis is finally done but somehow, I do feel pressured to still do my best on the final defense... I really want to get that "best thesis" thing-y again... like brother, like sister... bwahahahaha!