Thinking Out Loud *continuation*

CSAT
I remember taking the CSAT (College Scholastic Aptitude Test) on 11 August 2005. I felt mentally drained after that. My head hurt terribly the whole day, I tried to sleep it off as I got home, but I couldn’t even get myself to lie down. Later that evening, my mom suggested I take my BP… though I knew it was pointless (we didn’t even know what my normal BP should be)… she said, "at least we’ll know more or less" … BP result was 94/53. And I told you, she had no idea whether that was high or low (see? Pointless!) but somehow, I think that’s low, just not sure…

Days (or weeks) later, the results came in. I was so sorry that I didn’t take the test that seriously (namely in the Science and Inductive Reasoning sections). I didn’t feel like doing long computations any longer or straining my brain too much on these sections cos that was when I started to feel weak; I suddenly wasn’t feeling well. Wonder how much higher my score would have been if I had been more "perked" up to take the test... :(
Sayang! Just a few more points and my Standard Score would have been Excellent. I only needed a score of at least 669 to be considered such when I got a 641, meaning Superior (so, not that bad)… English, 736 (Excellent)… Mathematics, 715 (Excellent)… Science, 556 (High Average), sayang talaga… Inductive Reasoning, 500 (Average)… well, okay, I found the IR part to be the hardest… guess it’s cos I’m a left-brainer, not a right-brainer.. Overall, got a percentile rank of 92… not bad… somehow, it’s good since I scored high (my parents actually wanted to frame the results… tsss…), but somehow, it’s not enough, when I think that I could have done MUCH better on that Science part… the worse part… these things only come once… OUCH.


MAJOR HIT ON THE HEAD
Every New Year, our family stays at Bellevue and that’s where we have our family get-together and gift giving, since we are all busy during the Christmas season with all the reunions going on. Last New Year’s eve, my brother and I headed to the mall together since we both got bored staying in the hotel rooms and he needed to get some groceries. As we were strolling around the mall, my brother asked me what I got for his daughter (my inaanak) for Christmas. He wanted to make sure she would get something she would enjoy, like toys (and not books, she gets those all the time na raw), since kawawa naman ung bata. She had an accident earlier that day as she tripped while running around with her cousin (baby boy of my other brother). Anyways, we ended up reminiscing the times when I was a kid. He began making fun of me by stating that as a kid, it was hard to give me gifts. I was never a girly-girl, he said. I didn’t believe him. He went on saying that I never liked Barbie dolls, I never really played with them. I never really played bahay-bahayan, luto-lutuan, and all those girly games. I still refused to believe, cos I did remember doing those as a toddler. He clarified that I did play those stuff but not really that often, it was actually very rare to see me hold a doll. He said, "You know what you always were consistent at? What you always liked to play with? Your favorite game?" I looked at him, trying to see if he was trying to play with me or if he was really serious… and he was serious and so I asked him what it was… "doctor-doctor," he said. "You would always ask mommy and daddy to buy those doctor play sets. You even had this very nice play set dad bought in the States, the stethoscope even produces beating sounds.." he continued and at that moment I remembered.
They say if you want to know what you would enjoy doing in the future, what you would be successful at, look back on what you liked to do as a child… imagine yourself doing that for your whole lifetime.