the week gone by

Exam week's over... how sad... it's back to normal schedules now... duty, classes, haaay. Pretty much a lot has gone by, and I've definitely enjoyed the "break".

Monday - studied. no, not our lessons. did no reviewing on this day. kept my mind free from school-related stuff. in a way, i just studied things that have happened in the past regarding him, yes, things still seem unclear to me.... but thanks to lani, i've realized that it was probably a "two-way road disaster", if you know what i mean. I've always somehow blamed myself for letting go... my mom blamed him for being too slow and unclear of himself. i don't know, i'm at a loss of words to explain things right now but basically, now I realize that we both probably are at fault for the way things are. And, if he sees this, I just wanna say I'M SORRY. i can't elaborate on things, it's something probably better kept between us two... but i'm hoping we could talk things out. i miss everything, all those memories... i still remember every minute detail.


Tuesday & Wednesday - promised myself to dedicate these days to reviewing for the upcoming exams (for the first time)... but as it turns out, I've stayed true to my same old principle of not studying... hehe. I've managed to find petty reasons to take a 5-minute study break (every time I hit the books)... and that 5-minute break always turned into at least 5 hours away from my books/notes. so for these two days, i've probably only managed to dedicate about 2 hours to studying (or more like, browsing) notes.

Thursday - exam day. didn't get much sleep the night before. so come break, my intention of studying for the NCM exam was once again, dismissed. thanks to rox tho for studying out loud, making me feel annoyed for it seemed that i was mostly clueless on the stuff she mentioned. :P
After exams, headed home and prepared myself for the night. we were going to Manila Hotel, as my dad had some awarding event. food was quite depressing but I loved the soup they served... and the dessert! I just had to take some pictures of it (cos it looked that pretty). right after dad got his award, mom and i headed to the bar, dad followed some time after. the band was sooo good! we stayed till the end... leaving at about 12.... and to think i had a dental appointment the next morning. oh no!

Friday - I've been looking forward to this day, another appointment with my TMJ specialist. heck, slept really late and woke up pretty darn early for my 8am appointment. thankfully tho, i wasn't sleepy during the time... but to make me feel jittery came the fact that i thought we were gonna be late! traffic was so heavy. haaay. thankfully, got to the clinic on time.

Saturday - fun. usual choir sched. tho, we were soo few. just 4 of us - Ate Anna, Ate Christine, Cheska, and I. the night was fun, bonding... except for the fact that Kuya Tutut and Ate Anna were pressuring me on dishing out facts on my crush (and they'd try to guess who he was)... argh! they wouldn't let me get down from the car until i told them daw... Kuya Tutut locked the car doors.... hahaha... so, the car was parked outside our place for quite some time... hahaha... i was soooo frantic. hahaha. good thing i was saved from that moment tho... they let me go rin... without me saying a thing... haha. i strongly refuse to give clues as to who he is... :P

Alto in training

Well, choir's been pretty fun(-ny?) lately. Last week, ate Dianne shared some stories on her WYD Sydney experience... and she brought chockies along (that's my new term for chocolates)... tons and tons of them! the cute part of last week's session: kitty notes made by ate Nicole after solfeggio lessons (as we were having choir practice). ---> just visit my multiply acct. for more pics.... including those of the leftover chocolates and the wrappers of those we've managed to have eaten! :P




And this week, we're starting to practice for 08 Sept. And, tita asked me to learn the alto parts... cos we need more altos, especially if the niñas are singing along with us. wooohoo! so, it's a long weekend, given that monday's a holiday, and I'm gonna be spending the time studying the alto parts. joy! challenge! i mean, don't get me wrong, it's not my first time to be doing voicing, I've done so before during Simbanggabi slots, Christmas midnight mass and Easter Vigil mass... but it'll probably be my first time outside those events... haha... i don't know. not like i count it, ... but anyway, maybe it's more new tunes to "adapt" myself to.

Funny part of the night: i had my barok (sp??) moment.
Ate Queza: sino nagdala ng food?
me: I don't know...
Cheska: It just appeared from thin air.
me: yeah, probably... *poof*... FELLING from the sky...
(harhar)


And, going home, had an "adventure" with ate Dianne... haha. her gas tank was on "empty" na... so we had to go to the gasoline station... we passed the Elizalde route to Phase I (which was nearer the gas station) only to find out that they've closed the gates (and only at around 1020pm... tsktsktsk!)... so we had to turn to the clubhouse, taking the Aguirre route, passing Tropical Supermarket... taking a longer time. WHEW! buti nakaabot... and we (ok, I. dunno about ate Dianne) thought that the gas station was closed as it was completely dark! turns out, only a few lights were left on there, those of the open "stations". And it was there at the gas station that ate Dianne knew that I'm an addict... haha. I love the smell of gas, paint, ... rugby (she filled that part in) haha. weird daw. well, .... haha! :P

AMBUSH!

It's so sad that this is our last day @ the LPDH OR. All the nurses there have just been soooo kind ^_^ funny part of the day probably was where we ambushed Sir Neil (aka "Sir Happy" daw) for some photoshoot.... right in the LPDH caf. haha.

The challenge I've found amusing: Dr. Clyde asked us to name 4 (or 5 ba) nurses in the LPDH OR that we've come to know during our 6-day duty there. Hmmm.... kakatuwa! I had no problem doing so (a proof ata na ganun sila ka-friendly/-bait). So, lemme try to really enumerate all those whom I've come to know... in a way, siguro, it's a way of showing my gratitude to them na rin...

1. Ma'am Rachelle (shucks! di ako sanay... talagang "ate" pa kasi tawag ko hehe)
2. Sir Neil
3. Sir Aries
4. Sir Joel
5. Sir Chris
6. Sir Fort
7. Sir Bert
8. Sir Jack
9. Sir Francis
10. Ma'am Monet
11. Ma'am Jane
12. Ma'am Gina
13. Ma'am Cha

hmmm... 13. not bad. ung mga girls kasi, nakilala ko lang from reading their name tags... but didn't really get to talk to them much as the guys. kasi sila talaga ung mga nakakausap talaga namin at nasasalubong sa loob ng OR. :P

familiarity

Last week, at the OR, as I was to accompany Maricar in having her break, I saw a familiar face as we exited the OR itself, as we were placing on our lab gowns and changing our shoes. I recognized her to be someone from the choir. I immediately waved and she smiled back. I couldn't really remember her name at this point, I just recognized the face.

Yesterday, I saw that familiar face once again... INSIDE the OR this time. I was soooo shocked! I was probably staring! hehehe. At one time, I checked the board for her name: Rachelle. Yes, possible, Ate Rachelle. but hmmm, I don't really want to be all too sure. Yet, I didn't really have the nerve to go and approach her though I did try. hehe. I was just too shy and unsure of myself. So, upon arriving home, I immediately checked Friendster. and Yes, it was confirmed, it's her, from the ARCHCON.

Today, as she was just around (and as Dr. Clyde had already asked her earlier... haha, inunahan pa ako! cos I told him kasi that she looked familiar eh), I asked her.... and yeah, it's definitely her. wow! small world nanaman! how fun! it's nice to know na you know someone there. sayang lang at last week na namin ito in LPDH OR. tho, yeah, we'd have one more week here in the Finals, AM shift naman. Sana, I'd get to bump into her pa rin then. =)

OR week 2, day 1

Probably the most memorable day for me in the OR. Brainteaser day. haha.

Sir Aries invited me and tita Joy to join them in viewing the gastronomy (weird, i really think it's gastroscopy... but that's what was indicated on the board) being done on a patient. We hesitated, not knowing whether we'd be allowed by Dr. Clyde to do so. I so badly wanted to be in that room with them (Sir Aries, Sir Neil, and Sir Chris... and the patient of course). Good thing Sir Aries called us again and signaled us to enter the OR room 1. I couldn't help myself this time. pakapalan na ng mukha ito! hahaha. I went to Dr. Clyde who was still telling stories to our other groupmates and asked permission. At first I think he didn't want us to go in there but when he knew that tita Joy and I were being called (/invited) to view the procedure, he finally agreed. WOOHOO! We went back to the other room and signaled to Sir Aries that we were allowed to watch, so he and Sir Neil told us to go and enter the room. Natakot ako before entering as I heard one say na tatanung-tanungin kami ng isa diyan. oh no! haha. But h'yeah, I still went in. And, Yeah, I guess it was true somehow. We were interrogated in there but it wasn't anything about the case at all. We were given 3 questions to answer... and we needed to answer them all. According to Sir Chris (who's been throwing the questions), no one's gonna be allowed to leave the room until we answer his questions... *GULP* haha

QUESTION # 1: Bakit tinitignan ng babae kung malaki ang paa ng isang lalaki?
QUESTION # 2: Anong bagay ang sinusubo muna ng mga babae (o bakla) para lumambot at nang mapasok?
QUESTION # 3: *form an L with your thumb and forefinger* The tip of the thumb to the tip of the finger is used to measure what in males? it is the size of a male's _______?


hahaha! Think of the answers carefully as I'm not going to share them with you. :P

it's a girl! =)

I'm so shocked! I still can't believe how it felt in the battlefield yesterday when I got to do an actual baby delivery via NSD!

Currently, I'm on duty at the OR in LPDH, and I'm loving it! oh, the thought of just being in a place exclusive to healthcare professionals (I mean, not even patients' relatives are allowed to enter this realm, and yet, here we are)... plus, I just love seeing surgeries! I used to see these stuff only on tv documentaries, special videos from doctors whom I've got connections with, etc... but never have I seen an actual "live" operation happening right before my very eyes! And that's what's happening with the OR: surgery galore! woooo!

Unfortunately, I'm assigned to the 2pm-10pm shift so nothing much happens then as most ops occur in the morning shift but just yesterday, Maricar and I heard a woman was being prepped for NSD... I informed tita Joy, she and I asked our CI if we could observe. Our CI said: "observe? No. that's your case!" Wooohooo! alright! We informed Maricar and we waited for things to happen. We observed the woman in labor. As crowning happened, the nurses there called the client's OB (who so happens to be the tita of a friend of mine) to inform her that the patient is ready to give birth. Upon the doctor's arrival, she immediately asks us student nurses who wants to scrub in. She asked for one of us three. Maricar told me to go ahead and scrub in. I looked at tita Joy and told her to do it (as I'm not really into deliveries.ick.) But she told me I should do it. I signaled to her that she ought to take the case. Suddenly, our CI made the final decision and told me to go and be the one to scrub in. WHAT?! well, I couldn't say "no" now, it wouldn't seem proper. So, fine, I scrubbed in.

I thought the farthest I would go in this case would be to actually hand the various instruments the doctor would need but no,... things got farther, and farther, and farther. I was asked to clamp the cord (fine), then place another clamp on the cord (fine), then I was asked to actually cut the cord! (thinking this was the end, fine). All of a sudden, the doctor stood up and told me to take a sit in the chair she was seated in (uh-oh, this can't be good... but fine) and then she tells me to go ahead and deliver the placenta (WHAT?! so much for my first time!)! Anyway, shocking as it was, and panicky as I seemed to be, it was an overwhelming feeling to get to experience such thing. =)

missing my BCF friends

browsing through my photos on friendster (cos i had nothing to do), aside from being amazed at how obese i was back then,....memories flood my mind. and i say, i really do miss my friends, Bea and Carisse. They've been my "soul sisters" since i've stepped into college grounds in Sville. United by the bond of being the aspirers to the MD title i think, haha.

The sad thing now is that we don't get to interact at all anymore, apart maybe from hi-hello's. And if we do get to talk, things are way different. i don't know if it's just me, or even they notice but it does kinda get awkward. on my thinking, i'm guessing it's because we've been separated for such a long time (currently 4 semesters and 1 summer) and to think we've only been together for 1 semester. That may be one predisposing factor, another may be me getting to interact with other people. All this time that we've been placed apart, i thought the good thing about me being separated from them would mean me getting to actually have to socialize myself with other people and meet a new circle of friends. Well, that did happen as I joined my current clique now. That did have a bad side as well, as it turns out. That's because now that I've had new friends, I no longer bothered to have to look for Bea/Carisse during breaks to spend time with them. I was satisfied with my friends from within my class. Seems as if i took things for granted, huh. But that was because I knew that Bea, Carisse and I had this special bond that we would always stay friends no matter what all the way up till med school (which is now in our near future i suppose)... and i do intend to hold on to that "sisterhood", even tho it may not seem so at the moment. Now, it seems as though i don't know them any longer. :( it feels horrible.

But, hmmm... i don't know where I'm going with this post for all I know right now is that i miss them so much. I'm not sorry that i've gained new friends, it's just that i miss the "old" ones as well. we may have lost contact (or whatever you may call it) but i do know they're the ones I can count on through thick and thin , and we'll always be there for each other. I hope this is just a phase that we're going through, thanks to all the harsh things happening in the world we revolve in right now (which i'm totally dreading... I've long realized it was a mistake for me to be here, the nursing life is DEFINITELY not me at all).

joy

What a day. 8AM-4PM, I had my duty rotation at Tuloy Foundation. Thank God we were sent home early, and we got to convince our CI not to let us go back to school anymore for library work... well, i don't know if we really got to convince her, but hey, bottomline is, plans were changed. So, after, immediately headed to Festival (at about 230) for my appointment with Dra. Nubla at 6pm. It was a good thing Maricar was headed that way too, at least may kasabay ako.

So, the instant I arrived @ Festi, I changed out of my RLE uniform and into civilian attire, finished my lunch, and brushed my teeth in preparation for the appointment. I wasted my time window shopping. Got to meet up with my parents at 4. Admittingly, I was late for my appointment! I could not believe! I FEEL SO ASHAMED. The reason? my parents decided on eating before my appointment, so fine. 530. great. 15 minutes to eat since i wanted to be at healthway 15 mins before schedule (parang duty ba? haha). But the resto took 15mins before handing out our orders. fine. I'd just have to eat 5 mins, brush my teeth another 5 mins, and another 5 mins would be for proceeding to healthway. i did stay true to eating only 5 minutes, leaving my fries to my mom. but, the thing is, i like to take time brushing my teeth. so, h'yeah. i took 10 minutes to brush. so, i arrived at the clinic at about 6:05pm. I was hoping Dra. wasn't there yet but as I was registering, I asked my mom to ask if Dra. Nubla was there already. The girl at the counter made a phone call and after, informed us that she already was there, waiting for us. AAACK! I practically shrieked in panic. Mom told me to go ahead; she finished up registering for me. Dad knocked at the door (I was shy to do so), and h'yeah. She was there, prepared already. I FELT SO ASHAMED that I failed to ask if she's been there for some time na.


My lower braces could not be placed yet. She still had to move my upper set of teeth a bit more forward. So, she tightened them up again, really tight according to her... and she's so shocked that I could not feel anything at all. I could feel her tightening the braces but I couldn't feel the tightness AFTER the whole 'procedure'. She even asked me if I wanted to have her tighten it more pa, sabi ko okay lang, pwede. She took a look and said na sobra na talaga sikip niya, she couldn't believe it was nothing for me. haha tawa na lang siya. although, somehow it is scary. does that mean i'm actually masochistic... does that mean i love pain?! i like thinking i am quite like that but i never thought it would go that far as me not experiencing any pain/difficulty at all.... even that dentist who fixes my dental caries is shocked, saying that i've got a high tolerance for pain. So, bottomline, as Dra. Nubla said, ibig sabihin nun, pag-umaray daw ako, aray na daw talaga un... masakit na daw talaga. haha! =)


After my braces had been tightened, nahiya ako!!! cos fine, she did the usual physiotherapy massages... but aside from that, she actually gave me some neck/shoulder/back massages... or what she termed 'stretches' i think. still! nakakahiya.... pero, yeah, sarap ng feeling. I just felt awkward as she was doin the massages... kasi naman, imagine naman your doctor/your dentist giving you a massage. hala! haha.. so, again, awkward. plus the fact that I was late. it doesn't matter na 5 mins lang yan, or whatever... according to one of the ethico-moral maxims: A little more or less does not change the substance of an act. so late pa rin ako.. huhuhu. =(

But still, i'm overwhelmed with joy talaga that she (Dr. Nubla) is the one handling my case. i swear i can't get over the fact that i love her to death! she's really a nice person, sooobrang bait.

Personally, I've always felt ill-fated about DMDs (especially as confirmed by those two "nut head wackos", Dra. T and Dra C). But Dra. Nubla's an exception to that. You can't believe how much i look forward to our appointments. I don't know, there must be something different in her talaga... kind, friendly, intelligent (according to my mom, kasi as i see it she seems to remember every minute detail... and to think, di lang naman kasi ako ung patient niya, she's got a lot of other patients pa, so xempre... i was wondering how she could remember all her clients plus the minute details nga like what kind of 'elastic band' whtachamacallit i like.). I seem to have trusted her so easily from the very first time we met her, that very first consultation with her.

Haaay nako, till here na nga lang. it's soooo long na... plus, got some reports to prepare for.

Tuloy sa Don Bosco

Just got home from my current rotation: Tuloy Foundation. it started in 1993 (Tuloy sa Don Bosco Children's Village, Makati) with just a simple structured building holding only a few kids; however, in the year 2000, DSWD Muntinlupa donated to them the current place where we're on duty now. It's right in front of ATC. This foundation helps indigent children, offering free board and lodging, education, etc. and saving them from the harsh reality of life on the streets, preventing them from being beggars, or even worse, thieves/criminals. Some may have had a troubled past and sought protection.


The ages of those indigent people who benefit from this foundation ranges from 9-17/18 years old. They're given vocationals such as automotive, mechanic, AC tech, etc. they even offer baking/cooking classes! They're even given 1yr OJT! As we saw on their video, one of their "graduates" even got to work in Honda for a year, then in Caltex. AMAZING! What a nice thing to know.

The foundation holds 9 dorms, 7 of which are occupied. They have 2 types of "clients": residents and non-residents. The residents are those who stay there full time, availing of free board and lodging, education, food, etc. The non-residents, on the other hand, go their own ways after classes... going home to their parents, etc. They bring their own lunch but are provided with snacks. And I was shocked to find out that the snack they were being served was Gardenia bread! how sosy! :) Turns out, Gardenia is one of their benefactors... okay, so all the more reason for me to support Gardenia!!! :) And, another thing is that if these children get sick, they're hospital is Asian Hospital, who is also a benefactor of the Don Bosco Foundation.


I'm so amazed to see that there still live people willing to reach out to others and lend a helping hand. And, I really do hope that they continue to touch/inspire/motivate other people to do the same in exerting effort to help our less fortunate brothers and sisters.

I definitely am looking forward to the days we'd be having our RLE duties in this foundation. Actually, I'm even considering being a volunteer... to tutor these kids. I can't believe I'm saying that. But I am serious about it; I even grabbed a form to fill up... so far my mom's supportive of it. so there.... in the meantime, gotta do some researches for my teachings... ;)

glad to be back

news of the moment: just had my ortho done today, this morning to be exact. and, capping's next saturday, 21 june... which also happens to be my dad's bday.

well the BEST NEWS EVER would be that i'm back with my original TMJ specialist, Dra. Nubla. I just love her sooo much! ang bait niya talaga! ^_^ and this morning, as i had mentioned earlier, i've decided to have my treatment started already. i had to miss out on school for this. but heck, it's well worth it. the appointment was supposedly from 8 till 11 AM but we extended all the way up to about 1230... nahiya nga ako eh cos she had to go to Rob Manila pa for another appointment of hers. But, as I said, sooobrang bait niya kasi. i really love her! ^_^ haha. and i can't seem to get over that fact. as of now, only the top part has been "braced" for reasons i'm too lazy to type in right now. haha. but i must say, she took really good care of me during that time, talagang mabusisi siya or whatever term you must use. she did everything she could talaga, and i didn't experience any pain or discomfort at all. kung pwede nga lang, siya na lang maglagay ng mga fillings ko for my insipient caries eh.

And, regarding Dra. T******, did you know she's actually going to sue me. yes, me cos it's me who's her patient daw and i ain't no longer a minor. ha! natatawa nalang ako. even those i tell it to, can't imagine the scenario. she's suing me... ON WHAT GROUNDS?!?! grabe, so now we're talking to various dentists, explaining the scenario and everything so just in case she does sue, we're prepared. well, okay actually it's my dad doing that. i don't even care. i ain't worried one bit.

I don't know if it was some sort of "Divine intervention" or something (haha. drama?!) but I saw my Kuya Beboy again yesterday and yeah, we got to talk about the case. he referred me to his dentist which happens to be just around the place. plus, mas mura daw. although, i don't know, i refuse to accept that fact kasi nga iba naman case ko from him. I probably would have checked it out if it weren't for time. all the time i was talking to him, i kept saying "sa saturday,... sa saturday..." turns out saturday=tomorrow! oh no! i had no more choice, i had already made an appointment with Dra. Nubla, and she has already ordered the ortho materials. But nevertheless, my dad tried pa rin and gave this dentist a call. she had a Px at that time and so she just gave us a return call. He consulted her about my case... told her about my loooooong background and everything. i don't know exactly how it went but i guess she's waiting for my records as she wants to take a look at 'em i guess. anyway, there.

this morning, as i was having my ortho, my dad had a meeting with the current president of the PDA pque chapter i think, with the past president as well. as i said i'm too lazy to type all the details now but generally, according to my dad, the meeting went pretty well.

all the dentists we've been talking to want to see my record, those with the PDA mentioned above, Dra. Salamat (the one referred to me)... but h'yeah. the problem is that I think the only way we could get hold of a copy would be to have another set done (which will be given to my dr. and she'll give me my old results..but it has to be now as there hasn't been much movement pa)... OR maybe ask her to send it to me via e-mail or something. i don't know, she mentioned kasi something about uploading it to the computer eh. cos, basically, the thing is that we can't get my records from her as she would need them over the entire course of treatment.

This morning, we were talking nga with Dra. Nubla about the plus side of having Dra. C (the TMJ specialist we consulted in our place, read my previous blog - of surgery and ortho - for details) since she's much closer to our place. we could easily go to her for "emergency" cases. i was shocked to hear from Dra. Nubla that if we wanted, we could still go on and spend more time to think of it... wag daw namin siya intindihin. i was so shocked to hear that! Dra. T., she never even allowed us to go to another dentist, and the moment we got the records she even said that she would no longer accept me if we decide to have it done by her in the end. ang kapal! and to think di naman siya TMJ specialist. she's a plain orthodontist but she's trying to "grab" my case as i feel since di naman daw seryoso ung TMJ prob ko. I. DON'T.CARE. That's the chief complaint. That's what ought to be treated! anyway...... but here was my dentist, saying that. after us making that appointment to start treatment, after her getting the materials needed. i was so SHOCKED. it was then that i made it clear to her that I NEVER WANNA GO BACK TO THOSE 2 DENTISTS EVER AGAIN. it's her that i trust now, since the start actually (heck, i only went to those two cos i felt some force since it's nearer and i thought i would never be able to go back to her care). Thank God. and after all that happened, Dra. Nubla tells me not to worry about those things anymore, not to even think about it. lalo lang daw ako mastre-stress, triggering my condition. She said she'll just adjust to what's left and make the most out of it. She'll try to make things work. All she asked of me was to be cooperative. "...don't worry, di naman kita pababayaan eh..." she said.

first hospital exposure

Today, it's official. I'm now finally on my "break". a one-week break after 6 weeks of summer. one week which ought to be spent enrolling. but argh, the institution's getting on my nerves again. i've been there this morning to enroll and guess what, our grades haven't been released yet! so I can't enroll yet. a-nnoying! i had my mind set on finishing things up today for I might be busy over the week with dental appointments.. as I had said, the dentist's rushing on putting me on ortho right now... tho I don't know, I've decided to go back to Dr. Nubla whom I seem to trust more. the other just irritates me at the fact that she made me undergo surgery... when I don't really know if it's really necessary. and to think, my tita doesn't really know her that much pala. wow, thanks ha! thanks for referring someone you don't know much.

anyway, blogging about hospital duties....

for this summer, we've been scheduled to have 2 weeks of hospital exposure... or equivalent to 51 hours duty. first week (MTW), my sched was from 6AM to 12nn at the Aguilar ward. it was okay but the time seemed sooo long (actually, that part was pretty much constant whatever the sched was). the sad part was that on the second day (wednesday... it's just the second day cos monday was orientation), my patient had been discharged so I had to be assigned to another one. I was awaiting week 2 cos at least then, duty would start at 12nn (for MTW). It was quite hard having to leave the house at 5:15am, considering we had to be at the hospital 15 minutes before duty time.

MTW, 12nn-6pm slot. i thought it would be better for me but no, I actually prefer the morning slot. during these days, i felt so disoriented. i didn't know what time to eat, to dress up, etc..... i didn't know how to go about my "routine". Thankfully though, I was transferred to Station 3... the ward where Ge-An was. Not that I didn't have any company at the Aguilar ward but I just missed Ge-An. Sad that I was leaving ate Chris at the Aguilar ward but at least I was gonna be with Ge-An, Lani, Tabs! but the hard part at Station3 was that the Nurses' station was "secluded". Unlike in Aguilar ward, where we stayed "within" the Nurses' station, where we could just go ahead and get the patient's charts,... in Station 3, it didn't seem that way. We had to ask our CIs to get it for us... or sometimes, we even asked the nurses na... at times, the nurses would tell us to just go in but we didn't want to. it's like: nakakahiya. But basically, though I had friends with me, kadamay ko lang talaga sina Ge-An and my partner, Maricar. busy kasi si Lani eh, sobra! nurse na nurse na my gosh!while kami ni Ge-An, wala lang... tulala. haha. and, just as in the case of Ate Chris and I in the other ward, we also had nothing to say to each other. odd. as we had agreed, being in the hospital made us feel like we had been imprisoned, like we had been sent off to military school, or something. we felt like robots, like slaves. Sure, I was overwhelmed to be in a hospital... but not in this way, not as a nurse. I really am awaiting my "doctor days".

the Good News came. Wednesday.
the CIs gathered us around for a quiz and an announcement. NO DUTY ON FRIDAY. hoooray! we all wanted to shout for joy! we almost did until the CI quickly added: WALANG SISIGAW. whoops! talk about anticipation haha. yes, I guess we somehow forgot we were in a hospital.



6PM - 12MN. Thursday. This is definitely the shift for me. I was soooo hyper that my friends noticed. Ge-An kept laughing at me na nga eh... i was acting strangely, talking endlessly, being so hyper. night person talaga ako. haha. nocturnal. so was Lani that night, as she only had one patient as well. the funny part was when she was making fun out of the construction workers in the other building... haha oh no! Lani ha.tsktsktsk. And also, funny was when we tried to come up with ways to avoid "Maricar's situation" for the night. hahaha! oh the excuses, oh the tactics. Oh, and i'll never forget the memory of that nurse na naki-epal sa saya namin ni Ge-An as we found ourselves amazed at the hospital's windows... haha. and that lady who asked: "San ung papunta sa baba?" or something like that and Ge-An and I were so pissed that we wanted to reply: "Paano ka nakaakyat?!". haha.
Overall, I'm glad my last duty ended up this way, I'm glad it was this fun. i guess you could say it was basically was a night of laughter. haha. at least i'm not gonna be dreading the next duty as much as i would if it had been otherwise.

of surgery and ortho

Started when I visited a TMJ specialist regarding my TMJ syndrome about 3 weeks ago. well, okay, it wasn't yet that but it could probably have been if I hadn't seeked treatment early, it's an abnormality to have your jaw click at least once a day for about two weeks (at that time). She had advised me to get some x-rays and other stuff done before she could go on with treatment, which consisted of having a splint (6-10 months) followed by ortho (at least 2 years). had to wait for another week for the release of the remaining results (photos and cast took 7 days). was able to contact another TMJ specialist (thanks to my tita's connections, she's a dentist kasi). decided to try out that TMJ specialist my tita referred us to last night cos she was nearer our place. with the TMJ problem, appointments had to be strictly followed otherwise it's back to zero daw and we'd have to start from scratch. then, the EVIL part begins..

the TMJ specialist, and some other dentist (a friend of hers as well) took a look at my x-ray and stuff, asked me questions, blahblahblah. final conclusion: I could skip the splint part (cos it's just for relaxing my jaw muscles which i no longer need since Dr. Nubla, my former TMJ specialist, had massaged 'em and they no longer bother me). Anyway, I could now move on instead to the second phase of treatment... ortho (aka braces). Sure, I had wanted braces as a kid (esp my mom, she had always wanted me to have 'em, so she's sooo excited now) BUT, c'mon! i don't wanna have grad pics with my "braces smile". they're cute but I don't wanna look into those photos and see those contraptions! and now, the sad part is... it's our capping in June.. plus, in two years time, I'm graduating from the BSN program... tho yeah, heck, i'd rather have that in my BSN grad pics than at my med school pics... haha!

Somehow, i was worried... but soon eased into the thought of it.... at least it'd help me in my diet (di ka daw makakakain eh haha). plus, kuya Beboy, a friend of mine, just had braces recently, and it did suit him very well. cute nga sa kanya eh. so, i thought: heck, if i was gonna be as cute as him, the pain would be worth it... haha! yeah, the pain and the torture from my friends... haha. ngayon pa lang inaasar na ako nina Ge-An and ate Chris eh, sila pa lang naman kasi may alam... sila ni Tabs (and Carlann's reaction? excited? haha... gusto rin niya eh).

So, anyway, there. I was excited to actually get braces so i was hoping: fine. sana braces na lang, wag na splint. Cos, I saw the splint on someone (yoko na sabihin kung sino at baka ma-offend pa), it doesn't look good. sure, it's transparent but it's noticeable. looks dirty or something. and the proof na it's not only me being praning: my friends agreed to that fact.

Anyway, my wish came true BUT there's a catch. Instead of having that splint, that part of the therapy was "replaced" by something else. I HAVE TO UNDERGO SURGERY. okay, not bad. surgery, sure... but no, it's DENTAL SURGERY. gasp. so, fine they're gonna just remove my 4 molars. my 3rd molars. no biggie. SARCASTICALLY SPEAKING. i love my babies. i don't want 'em removed. i took extra good care of 'em. it pains me. sniff.

I wanted to faint right then and there! i could feel weakness in my knees... then when i asked, they both reassured me it would be painless. i'd have anesthesia so there'd be numbness, and heaviness, which the brain could misinterpret for pain but other than that, it's not gonna hurt one bit daw. how about after operation? oh, after the operation, of course it's gonna hurt somehow. nanggigil talaga ako! THAT was the part I was worrying about! darn it.

Oh well, but there's no turning back now. I'm scheduled for surgery this Friday morning at 10AM... one week after would be removal of the stitches... and a few days later i think, would be the ortho.... which I'm finally excited for. just don't wanna think of the extraction.... err, surgery na lang. it's much more soothing to my ears.

a revelation

got to have a 3G experience today. 3G standing for Gossip Girlz Gimmick.

the day started with a field trip to RITM (Research Institute for Tropical Medicine). The night before (last night), Carisse and Bea were inviting me to ride with them but I just had to decline. I found the "call time" too early (630am! I'm just waking up at that time). Kinda sad tho cos as Carisse said, we rarely get to hang-out now, and they're missing me (awww. of course I miss them too).

NOTE: BitChFit Inseparablez (BCF in short)/ Inseparable DLs / Beauty and Brains Society- Carisse, Bea, Carlann, Diana, and I
GossipGirlz - Rox, Glace, ate Chris, Ge-An, Joy, LA, Keni, Lani (our newest member), and I.

Anyway, at first, I asked Carisse if they wanted to hit the malls after the activity and she said we're definitely gonna.... to play CS. the thing is, that ain't really my thing. i don't wanna get addicted again to computer gaming. i was kinda bummed but just intended to join for the sake of getting to bond with them.

During the program proper, I once again had felt the disadvantage of having both your cliques at one venue. I didn't know who to stay with. So, I devised a plan of action. i'd go back and forth through the two groups. haha. kakapagod lang nga. so i said, fine. i'd stay with Carisse now then after the break, if any, i'd stay with the GossipGirlz. While with the BCF, the sad part was that I felt as though I hardly knew them. We were still friends, the bond was still there but I felt distant. Like I had told Carisse last night, blame the institution. we never hang-out anymore and thus, we only get to say HI's to each other, but we never really had the time for communication. After a few minutes, my friends from the other circle were calling me. They were having some photoshoot and of course I had to be there. MULTIPLY!!! errr, i mean MULTI-FLY!!!! And, I ended up staying with them throughout the whole activity. That film on rabies cases, it really scared the hell outta me. gave me the shivers. di tuloy ako makakain ng sisig for lunch, much as I wanted to cos it might contain animal brain, tapos it might not be well-cooked... tapos, ayun na, baka magka-rabies na ako (yes, you can get rabies thru this way daw, sabi ng asa RITM).... oh no! sisig-o-phobia! haha.

After, I asked Rox if they had any plans of bonding after the activity and tho she hadn't brought any money, she agreed to the plan and said we could have our bonding at festi. So, to cut things short, after careful deliberation, I ended joining the GossipGirlz. Sorry Carisse & Bea!!! You know I still love you guyz!

At festi, we couldn't enjoy ourselves. we weren't free kasi may isang naki-epal (as i think they would call it). Well, actually she's okay with me kasi i haven't really interacted with that girl pa but they say she's got some attitude problem. So, they were trying to think of ways to get all frank with her, which I couldn't do (despite my being straightforward) cos i barely know her. and, i kinda feel sorry for her since everyone has their back against her daw. yes, everyone, not just them. so, that's another reason daw why they didn't want her around. if people found out daw that she was with us, LOSER!

To highlight the main issue of this blog, a friend and I got to chat one-on-one. She opened up her insights regarding my other group of friends. I'm glad she understands how I'm their friend and yet, she opened up to me. And I'm also glad she did so, cos in that way I realize that I'm not the only one who has felt that feeling. I'm not gonna elaborate on what was told to me for the sake of that person, for the sake of confidentiality. but what I'm gonna say is that regarding my other friends, I do feel the sense that they're pretty hard to get into as a group, they feel as tho they're exclusive or something. I feel as though they think they're gods and they choose to socialize with people of equal class/intelligence. I feel bad because somehow, I feel like they belittle my new group of friends. I mean, I don't think they actually are like that but that's how it feels like. Since the start of summer, since i'm classmates with a few friends from both clans, I've made the effort to introduce them to each other in the hopes of getting them to collaborate, in the hopes of making our groups merge, in the hopes of having a larger circle of friends. But it seems as though they aren't welcome to that idea. Sure, they sit with us during lunch breaks but that's it. they just stay with us in our table, they don't even mingle with us, they don't even at least TRY to.

According to that someone, I used to be that way too but now, I've changed. And, if it's for that reason, I'm glad I've changed. I'm glad I've been hanging out with this other group as well to balance myself.

Mcdo and odd english

haha. oh well, i just felt the urge to blog of things that happened today for no apparent reason aside from the fact that I've got nothing better to do.... except study of course, but ya'll know how I ALWAYS hold that back (haha. I can just imagine how someone's gonna react to that part).

Anyway, today, my day started at Mcdo. It's a Thursday so my classes aren't till 1pm. We went to Mcdo to see Viiu, my 6 years old goddaughter. She's part of the kiddie crew there. She was just sooo adorable, and soooo oozing with confidence. kinda wish I was like her. funniest part was when she was taking our orders, my dad ordered coke then she goes and says: "what kind of coke? sprite?"
my dad: "No, coke"
Viiu: "what kind? sprite?"
my dad: "no, the regular kind, the black one"
Viiu: "which one? light, zero....."
everyone: "the regular one"
Viiu goes and sees someone getting the drink... and says: "oh, Coca-Cola!"

my gosh! i bet the Mcdo staff were getting panicky cos of her.... natataranta na sila dun haha! We brought KOBE along as well, and since he wanted a toy, Viiu told him he had to first get a happy meal.... she asked what happy meal he wanted by enumerating the choices he had. It was taking some time for KOBE to make-up his mind as what to order (in addition to his chocolate sundae) and Viiu goes and decides for him and tells one of the waitresses: "spaghetti. he wants the spaghetti happy meal." hahaha.


After that experience, headed straight to school (of course, we took KOBE home first). ... and okay, after grabbing something to serve as my lunch in the grocery so I could eat it in school (cos thanks to Dr. Adiviso, much as I LOVE MCDO, I felt quite some guilt to eat Mcdo now, for various reasons.... but I assure you, I don't have a phobia of Mcdo. i still support them. it's just for this time). Anyway, it was such a bummer. I went to school for nothing. Yes, 4.5 hours of nothingness. We literally had nothing to do in lab... and yet Dra C. refuses to let us leave early or at least give us some breaks... waaaaaah!!!!


the sad part tho is that during the review for our upcoming lab exam, I noticed something. and THANK GOD IT WASN'T ONLY ME WHO HAS THIS FEELING! Ge-An also confirmed it. it seemed like I no longer grasp our lessons this days... the thing's they speak of aren't of normal language anymore that it would actually take some time for it to load on our brain cells. oh man, please speak NORMAL english. Now, that's really a proof I gotta study.....when i manage to run out of excuses to NOT do otherwise. haha =)

ruined library

It's probably enough a miracle that I'm actually getting to write this right now. haha OA.

Never mind what happened on earlier during the day but as we (Ge-An, Lani, ate Chris and I) were waiting to be dismissed so we could head on to our homes and get on with our lives, something unexpected happened. SOMETHING TOTALLY UNEXPECTED. We were in the lib at the time (and yeah, that IS quite unexpected i guess haha) and our beloved Dra. C. wasn't there as our prof (since she was sick, and to think we still saw her yesterday as she proctored for our exam in NCM100)... so, the other Dra. was the substitute. another unexpected thing I guess... but, anyway, as I was saying, ... SOMETHING REALLY UNEXPECTED happened.


As Ge-An was browsing through some yearbook (just to make time pass by I guess), some noises we heard. I wondered where that could have come from but didn't mind. The sounds lasted only a few seconds and they were just quite soft... well, not really a thundering sound, just loud enough to hear. I easily dismissed those sounds as some books sliding on some shelf, probably from where Ge-An had gotten the yearbook or something else somewhere. After some few moments, we heard the sounds again... then again. We looked at each other and wondered... "San un? Ano un?". Then someone pointed out to the side of our table (I guess it was Lani... and I guess some people from the other tables as well noticed). It was right beside our table. It was right near Ge-An and I. The tiles were collapsing (errr, is that the right term???).... 6 of them (and considering the tiles in the lib were pretty big tiles). they were lifted quite high off the ground! Holy sh*t!!! I stood up thinking we should vacate the table immediately but not one of them was getting up from their seats. We were just staring at the tiles. I was partly scared, partly amazed. Someone (I guess it was Tita Joy) reacted and told us to get out cos it was gonna "open up farther". THAT was when we moved quickly. I tried getting a picture of it but I was quite far that it couldn't be seen so I moved in a bit closer as Lani had told me to. I tried getting the shot again but I couldn't, the light was bouncing off the tiles... I couldn't move in closer or look for another angle as I was trying to be discreet. hello, nakakahiya kaya sa mga librarian noh! haha

We were all trying to think of the possibilities of that happening... earthquake, pressure, etc. we tried to think of physics... haha. and Angelo was sooo funny. He said something like: so pano yan? ano ibig sabihin niyan? wala nang pasok? haha kala mo concerned eh, kala mo nag-iisip rin ng dahilan kung bakit nangyari un... pala concerned lang sa kung may pasok pa o wala... haha!

When you gotta go, you gotta go

WARNING: this post may probably be not for the faint-hearted... haha!

hilarious moment during today's microbio period. since the start of this week, our prof (Dra. C.) refuses to give us our early dismissals... and she really takes up the whole time. But, of course, as students, we try to "bargain" with her.... so, for today, we were asking her to dismiss us already (considering it's a weekend and we're all itching to go home). we say 4; she bargains 415 (our real time is till 430). Miss, 405! the reply: "we'll see..."


The room we were in was extremely cold (well, okay, according to Ge-An). I didn't feel the coldness until the later part of the lectures... and because of the coldness, we felt the urge to go. But we didn't want to yet cos we were expecting her to dismiss us anytime soon. it was 4, and we were expecting to be dismissed at 415 or earlier. BUT. BUT a lot of "but"s came. after discussing our research works, she moved on to having a "short" review for the upcoming exams on monday. whew!!! i kept trying to breathe deeply to keep me warm. and just when we thought Dra. C. was about to end her lecs (errr.... reviews)... she goes on and continues talking! just when she finally closes the current ppt presentation, she remembers something else and starts browsing through her files to open up another one!!! WHEW!!!! uggggh. WE REALLY NEED TO GOOOOOOO.... all the time, that's how we felt as she discussed. some classmates would even ask questions and Ge-An started getting so frustrated she even muttered under her breath: "stop asking questions." haha. it was SCARY to be beside her at this time haha, her blood was probably boiling haha. And, as we (Ge-An and I) got more frustrated, we began laughing so hard... we couldn't control it. It was kinda shameful cos it seems disrespectful considering we were right in the front row. BUT C'MON... it was already past 430!!! and WE REALLY NEEDED TO PEE!!!! our friends, Lani and Ate Chris, were telling us not to laugh; otherwise, it would be harder to control our urge but we couldn't control it. we were laughing at our frustrations...Dra. C. kept giving us "false hopes" as she said stuff like"o, you can read that na naman, just read that nalang" and then she'd go on explaining it pa rin... or, she'd close the current ppt and open a new one (done several times!)... eeeeeeh. we badly wanted to go but we couldn't and aside from that fact, it's a weekend, it's the last class of the week and we wanted to reach home ASAP to have a break! I know what you're thinking, why not go for a bladder break? well, you see, in Ge-An's terms, "badtrip un!", you go out and when you come back, you're already dismissed... i mean what the??! haaaay.


We were dismissed WAY past 430, probably 445 or 5pm. and just when Dra. C. said "okay,...." , we immediately stood up, headed to the door and walked briskly to the CR. haha! MAY POISE PA RIN AH! we didn't wait to hear what other stuff Dra. C. had to say, we left at "okay," hahahaha. Never will I forget this UTI moment, it's amazing how much torture our bladders had to go through at that time. hahahahaaaaaa! laughtrip!

first week of summer

fast-paced. that's probably one word i'd use to describe summer class. shed's hectic in a way, it seems amazing to think how it's already been one week, if you're talking about the time past. BUT, if you're talking about the stress factor involved, it probably feels like it's been 2-3 weeks already! Luckily, i've had some friends from both my cliques with me in class (Ge-An and ate Chris from the "gossip girlz"; Carlann and Diana from the "beauty and brains society")... and hey, I met a new friend! haha... soooo kiddy-like huh. Thing is though, I'm badly missing my other friends -- Rox, Glace, LA, Keni - who are classmates with Bea and Carisse (whom I also miss). Unfortunately, our sched was changed. At first, our MWF sched would permit us to mingle with each other during breaks... but now, that's gone! We won't even have the chance to meet up on TTh as well cos then, they're class is in the morning and by the time they're sent home, that's the time we head on over to school. sad.

The plus side of summer class is that you somehow get to "escape the heat" cos of the aircon in school but man oh man! on the first day, either there wasn't any aircon or it was really weak. IT WAS SO HOT! the TORTURE! And on that day, I practically can't count the number of times I went over to Gym3... yes, part of the reason was I accompanied some friends for fitting and part of the reason was because the aircon in Belles was sooo cool. haay, sarap! haha. probably, for this day, ginawa namin tambayan ang Belles, although we really couldn't stay in there forever, nakakahiya eh... so we kept coming back and forth, back and forth. haha. actually, I did this for the entire week! haha... for various reasons... accompanying friends, inquiring about the uniform's style ( I wanted to make sure I got things down to the very finest of details before I had more sets made elsewhere... haha OC?!), exercise (hey! cos of my class sked now, I'd only have the weekends to do my usual jogging.... so this ought to be better than nothing to add up to my daily physical activities)... and of course, the aircon (who could ever forget the beloved aircon? haha).


Overall, I'm still pretty much "enjoying" summer class cos (aside from the aircon), there aren't much people around, and there aren't any of those annoying koreans around (well, okay, maybe just a few)... it isn't green invasion with all those people from the lower levels. ick!

Another happy news is that I've finally gotten my clinical uniform today (set1, made by Belles.... it's "free" cos it's included in the tuition... haayst. unfair!). I got to fit it yesterday, haha, luckily I accompanied ate Chris to get her uniform (which I was going to borrow so I could show it to my dressmaker). I was shocked to see my name on their board... under the list of those for fitting. It was a bit loose so I had to have a second fitting today during break time (despite my hunger pangs... and carlann's as well). Then, I finally got to get it at the end of the day. Went with Ge-An whose uniform was now ready for fitting. Oh, the hilarious moment of Ge-An! I couldn't get over it... I STILL CAN'T get over it till now... haha. "bakit, parang masikip ata"... haha. I won't post the details for Ge-An's sake, it's soooo... ummm.... how should I say it... DEGRADING. haha! peace Ge-An!!!! =D


Additional update (although I don't know if good or bad) is that I've gotten my duty sched. 2 weeks of duty, that's 51 hours hospital exposure. And, I even have MIDNIGHT scheds!!! oh man...

REJOICE!!!

Well, we finally had our battery exam today. Oh, it feels so goooood to finally have the wreck out of your mind. here's to capping!!! weee!!!! well, okay, there's still our grades for them to evaluate... but that doesn't worry me at all since you won't feel the pressure of it, the pressure of some procedure you have to undergo.

there were four parts to the exam... part 1 included English 1 & 2, Algebra, (gen & inorganic) Chemistry. part 2 was composed of GenPsych, Philosophy, Biochem, Logic, and Biology. Part 3 was made up of PHC 1&2, Anatomy and Physiology, and Health Ethics. and the last part, part 4, was Physics, Nutrition, SocioAnthro, and English3. 20 questions were provided for each subject. That's a total of 17 subjects, 340 questions. woah.


As we were about to begin our part 3 test, Miss Alfi (our year level coordinator, and one of our CIs) announced that they've already began checking our earlier tests.. everyone reacted, noise filled the air. then when things seemed to "hushen" up a bit, Ms Alfi continued... "Fem even got a perfect score in algeb". everyone reacted, including me! i was so shocked i actually screamed, i think. hehe. well,well... 20 points down and, ... as Jerald (who was on my left) said, "320 more to go". haaaay. =)

I have a dream.....

Last night, 26 Feb 2006, I once again dreamt of him. I’ve always dreamt of him recently but in a not so good way. it's as though he's mad (well, kinda... but not like a raging bull) at me or something. but in my dream last night, he wasn't really mad (again, like a raging bull) but he was in his usual way in which he was. we had the same "cold" situation in which we currently do. he had this indifferent air of some sort of which presently is. in which, I hope you get the point. moving on....

it started of that way. I even remember as point where his best bud told me to give her a call at 8707-somethingsomething. can’t remember the entire number now. but anyway, i guess, that's irrelevant to the story. to our story.

i remember me being with his youngest sis when vanity just hit us and we just started playing around with her digicam... just as though we were that close (but the truth is we're just casual friends...something like that). anyway, we were fronting a mirror which is located beside a door to another room (kinda imagine the bellevue suite with a room adjacent to the living room/kitchen. imagine the mirror to the left of that door). the door was open and he was in that room with some other people. he was just sitted there, looking at us. after some shots (his sis and i were taking pictures of ourselves, remember), he motioned his sis to approach him. she did and left her cam with me. after a few moments, she made her way back and he stood following her. i hoped he would come and join us for some pictures those i highly doubted that somehow. that's why it was such a surprise that he sat next to me on the floor. he stayed on my right and his sis on my left. oh how cute! his other sis was on our farther right and we called out to her to join us. think she said she'd join in later. KJ. haha. so, we "moved on with our lives" and started to take some pics.

i'm shocked and touched at the fact that he had his arm on me... just like those days. at one point, we decided to use the camera's timer... and he even suggested like "3.1 seconds" and laughed. how lame of him. but still, i miss his "jokes", and no matter how lame, i love 'em. so there, we had the timer running and were waiting for it to go off so we could have our shot. it took quite some time and he said something like "ang tagal naman". and at that moment, since we were fronting the mirror, i saw him turn his head more towards my direction and he quickly gave me a smooch on my cheek. i felt so happy and relieved (and of course, giddy). so sad that it was only a dream.


at least i dreamt of him kissing me, somehow it made me remember that time (a little more than 3 years ago) that he implanted a kiss on my cheek for the very first time (and only time, if you're talking bout an actual lip-cheek contact). somehow, i needed to remember that feeling because as of now, i know that THAT IS a fact. he did kiss me. but i felt as though i wanted to question that now. it's been so long ago now. the feeling's something like "i know it but is it really". it's like saying "i exist... but how do i know that". it's like a fact that's taught to you by science / history where your mind knows it, your conscious of what has happened but that's all there is to it. it's only your mind that tells you that now and not your senses, not your very own self. and it's kinda hard knowing that sometimes the mind (and even the senses actually) can mislead you. but at least now, it feels as though i've relieved the experience again. it's really hard to explain it here. but i'm hoping you get the point.


and in case he sees this, I’m kinda hoping he knows it's him i'm talking about. just ask if it's so and I’d most readily admit my thoughts... all i can say for now is "I MISS HIM"

my concerns

well, whew! how tiring our sched was over the past few days. It all started last Saturday, I guess... because after such a week, we still had to go to school for the APSA ANP (assessment for nursing skills???) exam. That's gonna be one of our screening tests before we can get to move on into the capping ceremony. So, anyway, the exam was really tough considering that it was just supposed to be an IQ test (that is, it's supposed to be based on common sense knowledge)... well, okay, it wasn't really tough I guess. it was just hard (and challenging???) because we were given such a limited amount of time. What I remember was the first portion of the exam with some subtests (those I remember were: General Psychology, College Algebra, Physical Science, Life Science, Communication Skills... I'm not sure if I left out any more subtests). We were given 20 minutes to answer each subtest. That was quite OK for some parts (Physical and Life Science) since there probably were only about 30-45 items. But as for Gen. Psych and Comm. Skills, there were probably about 50-80 questions there. As for Algebra, sure, there was roughly only 30-45 questions there too BUT you really had to analyze ALL the problems and solve (come to think of it, we also had to solve some items in Physical Science).

so, anyway.....

after APSA, despite feeling like we were mentally drained, our class still had an exam in Physics to attend to. owwww. we couldn't think clearly at all. Each and everyone of us probably failed, a lot got lower than 10... and, not to brag(cos it's still really low),I was probably one of the high ones already with a score of 12! 12! over what, 20?! haaay.

The next day, I woke up dreading the day as it was my only "day off" (it'd be the same next weekend cos of some meeting I'm attending, so it's like I only get 1 weekend for 3 weeks!). ugh. Spent the day exercising myself to de-stress myself again.


To skip things, let's move on to Tuesday... RLE's Community Implementation Day. kakapagod! and as if that weren't enough, we still had a Physics lecture to attend that afternoon. haaay. I went home sick. literally.

Lastly, today, we've been bombarded with tests! PE exam, Consti, Phil Lit long test... haaay. Plus, still had to do my STS reaction paper due tomorrow. And to think next week's midterm exams. bleck. I gotta pass my IC requirements by then. oh, good luck. i don't even want to have to think of our Community Diagnosis and also, our Investigatory Project. aack.

The only thing I look forward to within next week: bonding with my friends after we get our midterm exams done! triple celebration:

1. 2 years worth of friendship
2. the end of midterms
3. Valentine's Day (of course!)

And where the heck do we plan to go? SHOOTING!!! yes, shooting on Valentines... how appropriate. And, I'm not talking bout paintball shooting, mind you... I'm talking real gunpwder shooting action, baby!

ups and downs

it was such a sad thing school days are back. only one week of class has gone by so far and I'm feeling stressed out already... or I don't know, maybe it's because I'm no longer used to the pressure after the vacation... or maybe it's beacause we've been dumped by lots of requirements once again. And no, not much from our major nsg. subjects... but more of from those minor onesl. how irritating.

Woke up really early yesterday to a nice cool rainy downfall. Oh, how much I wanted to return to sleep but I couldn't so I thought of starting with all the homeworks...
Phil Lit - US colonialism
Health Eco - demand for RNs in the US -- today and future; Australia's GNP/GDP, life expectancy, leading causes of mortality, blahblahblah...
PHC - report (BCPs - already bought actual pills from mercury over the week)
RLE - survey tallying for our community diagnosis
Consti - report (political parties); questions to be answered (re: Estrada voting in the last election; decision on the Hello Garci scandal)
Nutrition - report (hospital diet)
did I get to do them? naaah. I started with surfing the net.... then after a few hours, my nephew came and took the computer away from me (to play some games). anyway....
as I was preparing lunch, I suddenly remembered my shots. how random. I'm suposed to have my shots for hepa A&B that day. Got me excited as I love having injections. So we headed to the hospital after lunch, after bringing my nephew home. The doctor wasn't there. How annoying. I called the hospital that morning, they told me she would. So, anyway, it was some nurse who gave it to me. oh joy. sadly it would be another 5 years before I start receiving these shots again (for the booster).
In the evening there's the usual mass I go to but after which, we had not the usual practice but a party celebrating the 25th anniversary of the niños y niñas de maria. it was kinda sad since we weren't really complete. had a lot of photo taking with Cheska... oh, and speaking of photos, got to see some really old photos of our choir way back. it was soo nice to "reminisce" and see how my ate(s) and kuya(s) looked way back when. Came home really late na. thought it was only 11 pa nga eh. Sadly now, I've got tons of things to accomplish by this day. haaay. quite impossible.

Oh, and for the sake of Diana wanting to see that dress I wore that night (which I had gotten at Maldita), I've attached a pic taken by Cheska.